I'm drowning and you said learn how to swim ❤️

Drowning

Have you ever just felt like you were drowning ? It's like you're alive and you can't breathe. It's like your life is to much and you're actually drowning. I know the feeling of drowning. Intentionally I have drowned but once you think about it you regret it and come back up threw the water . One day I'll do it again I'll come threw the water and be alive again . I can't remember the last time I actually felt like I was alive , I felt true happiness. The little things used to make me happy but now it's rarely anything. The worlds a cruel and messed up place . God made this world this way for a reason so we could fight through it . We all sin but most people don't know all sins are the same . A murder is also the same as a lie. You know what else is funny ? The devil can appear as beautiful he was once gods favorite. Your bestfriend could secretly be your worst enemy and you would have no idea. I want to follow my dreams but everything's tough , for those of you wondering I have PTSD , anxiety , pnes , major depression , anorexic tendency , IED , and seasonal disorder ; also I'm non diagnosed with OCD . All of these make me struggle everyday . But you'll learn more about that and my struggles. If you know how I feel please comment Id love to talk to you .