Show Me You Care {A Harry Styles Fanfic} **on hold**

Chapter 11:

I hated it. Every last second of that kiss..I hated him...I hate Zayn for putting me in this situation. I'm in love with Harry...right? How long has Zayn wanted to do that? My brain floods with everything Zayn has said to me in the past days. He was there the day I got dropped off at the his by the limo driver..he told the interviewer that he couldn't imagine having anyone else on tour with him...but what does all of that mean.

"I wanna go back to bus." I mumble.

He nods. He hasn't said anything to me since it happened..maybe he knows it was a mistake too. Obviously he knows I'm still in love with Harry...right? No..he probably doesn't, I mean I broke up with Harry...but does Zayn know that?

Zayn parks his car and I jump out before he can say anything to me about anything at all. I run onto the bus and sprint into the cave..which was renamed by Niall and Liam to grant me free access.

Liam, Niall, and Louis are sitting on the couch talking about something.

"Ellie? You look as if you've seen a ghost!" Liam says.

"Where's Harry?" I ask.

"Ellie..we know what happened..he just went out." Louis says and stands up.

He walks up to me and puts his arms around me.

"Louis! where is he?" I scream and push his arm off of me.

"El..he's-he's...he's on a date." Louis says.

"He's what? We..we just broke up." I whimper.

"Thats how Harry works..he moves on quick...not usually this quick..but he did this time and I'm sorry Ellie." he says gently, instantly making me regret yelling at him. he's on my side.

"Who? Who's he with?" I ask.

"El..I don't think that's a good idea." Liam whispers from the couch.

"Taylor." Louis says ignoring Liam.

"Taylor? Swift?"

"Aye." Niall says from the couch.

"right..I'm-I'm-gonna go to bed." I mumble and shuffle to the bunk beds.

I look to Harry's and climb up to it, I lay down and cover myself with his blankets, I can smell his scent, and it keeps the tears from falling from my eyes.

"Be strong Ellie." I whisper to myself and shut my eyes letting myself drift away for a little while.

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Hours have passed, I know because its dark out and all the boys are in their beds, Harry is no where to be found. I climb down the ladder, I walk down the hall and slip quietly out of the bus. I need to walk.

I walked into downtown Arizona..and it being a Friday night it was crazy. I went to Melvin's..apparently all the celebrities go there. As I walk in I see an empty seat at the bar and decide that it's mine. I have to jump to get onto the chair it's so high.

"What can I get you?" the bartender asks me.

"Something with alcohol.." I mumble.

"I.D.?" he asks.

I pull out my temporary US I.D. stating I'm a resident of another country and I'm old enough to drink there.

"I'll give you our specialty drink Miss. Daye." He tells me.

Minutes pass before there's a drink in front of me. I never usually drink, I can't bring myself to do it most of the time, but I do, I suck it down.

"I'll have a water now." I say, already feeling a headache coming on.

The bell on the door rings and I look over to see him. Yeah..him. Harry. with Her. I quickly turn so he doesn't see me. He and Taylor sit a few seats down from me at the bar.

"Can I help you?" the bartender asks him.

"Yeah..I'll have a beer and she'll have your specialty..on me." I can see him grinning at her cheekily from the corner of my eye.

"Wait..aren't you dating that English girl? Why are you here with Taylor" The bartender asks.

"Don't worry about it man." Harry says.

I can hear the bartender walk away and into the kitchen.

"You should leave..." Someone whispers behind me.

"Why?" I ask him, knowing its Harry immediately.

"Because..you're gonna cause trouble..leave now..I'll pay for your drink." He whispers.

"This isn't like you Harry...can't you see your hurting me? I broke up with you so I wouldn't hurt you...Harry I'm messed up..okay?" I say and walk away before he can say anything else.

I walk back to the bus crying, hoping that some miracle will happen and he'll be behind me..but he isn't. When I reach the bus all of the boys are up and Zayn is the first to reach me.

"Hey love, are you alright? You had us worried-"

I plant a kiss on him before he can finish the sentence.

"Ellie?" Harry says from behind me.

I pull away from Zayn to see Harry standing in the doorway to the bus. His face hard.

"Really Zayn?" Harry says and runs past us and into the bunk room.

"This what you wanted?" Zayn asks me.

"What?" I snap.

"Did you want to make him jealous? Well let me just tell you Ellie..I was in love with you too...WAS." he says and follows Harrys path.

"El?" Liam says.

"Ellie?" Louis pleads.

I stare at the door to where Harry and now Zayn are, and then to Liam's sweet face in front of me, and then next to him to Louis.

"I did exactly what you told me not to do...broke his heart." I whisper to Louis.

His face goes soft but he knows I'm right.

"Ellie..things like this happen." Louis starts.

"No..Louis..I'm a heartbreaker...don't lie." I mumble.

"Ellie..come on..we need to talk." Liam says and grabs my arm leading me off the bus.

We walk in silence until we are far from the bus.

"Ellie..I need you to stop. With all of this." He says breaking the awkward silence.

"With what?" I ask.

"You are perfect everyone loves you...but your thinking to much...Harry isn't to blame for your eating problem..and your hate..he'd do anything to make you better and to make the hate stop..he's tried everything in his control. You're selfish Ellie and that's the honest truth...You take your problems and turn them into something else..someone's else's problems." He says.

I stare at him point blank.

"I'm sorry Liam." I cry out.

I slide to the ground in my sobs. He follows me to the ground and hold me..not in a weird way..in an older brother way. He holds me until I can't hold my eyes open any longer, finally I give in to my tiredness and fall into unconsciousness.

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I wake up in my bunk on a quiet bus, I look down to see all the bunks empty but Harrys, he lays there asleep. I climb down my bunk and search the bus for life, no one is there. They left me here with Harry? What if he tries to kill me or something...oh Ellie..he wouldn't do that..would he? My thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the bus door. I shuffle to door tiredly and open the door with a yawn.

"Hey." The girl says awkwardly. "Hi..I'm Taylor!" She says a little to preppy.

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I'm sick of these sad chapters...gee..hopefully there will only be a few more before everything gets happy and sweet again:)

-Savannah.xx

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