Inseparable (RATED R)

2. Not Going Anywhere

He now lived in a small, but long green caravan.

"Couldn't afford keeping the other house, have to save up a lot for universty you know." He told me as we walked to his.

We walked in, no one was home. The place was pretty messy, and i noticed it didnt bother him in the slightest. He took my leather jacket with his and hung them up on a rack.

"Remember the last time we sat on a sofa together?" Billy asked.

Of course i did. Its when he told me, frightened, that he felt something for me. The look in his eyes made me realise that he was telling the truth, and that he wasnt used to feeling something . He hadnt for a while, and didnt want to go through any pain again. He was afraid. But i let him in when i shouldn't. I told him he was safe, and that i could be home to him if he just let me be. I could be anything for him.

"No, i dont..and dont enlighten me." I told him, i wish he knew that i remembered every single thing.

"I wish it went differently"

"what do you mean?" I asked him.

"What i said to you.." Does that mean he wish he never said he had feelings for me? Was the whole thing a lie?

"So you never had feelings for me?" Infuriated, i asked him without thinking about what i was saying and how I say it. I musnt let him think im wrapped around his finger, not again.

He smirked a little. He found this funny? Hurting my feelings and crushing me was a joke to him. I shouldnt be surprised but boy, ive never felt more of the emotion.

"So you do remember..." He trails off.

I rolled my eyes. He only said that to make me say something about that time, making sure i did remember. He has got me wrapped around his finger in some ways.

"Why wont you forgive me? I know, youre with me right now, but thats not the point. You wont show any feelings when ive moved on from everything. Im not like I used to be, im not doing anything like that again.."

"Yes, but same for me..you dont understand do you? Nothing has ever hurt more than this, more than you hurt me. I never even knew this type of pain was even real, and what you said about you not doing anything like that again, well me fucking too. Maybe this was all a big mista-"

My words were cut off my his lips on mine. I tried pushing him off with all the strenth from my anger, but he wouldnt budge. His hands felt their way up to my cheeks and cupped them softly, stroking his thumb against my jaw. I knew this was wrong but i was so into this.

Its never happened before. And Billy knew it too.

"You're okay with doing it with me first?" He asked me with concern.

"I always knew it would be you anyway."

He smiled at me meaningfully, then aggresively pushed me onto his couch. I could feel his breath go down my neck as he took his lips across it, leaving trails of kisses as he went down lower and lower as he finally got to my thighs. He took his stubble hands and moved my legs apart, kissing my knee, then my upper thigh, continuesely letting his hand roam all over my body.

I felt ecstatic. My body has never been touched before, it felt amazing, like something ive never experienced before.

"Kiss me" He breathed.

I grabbed his plain white shirt and dragged him to my face. I forced my lips onto his, holding his hair in one hand. The words, 'this is wrong' were pulsing through my head but i chose to ignore it the best i could.

I couldnt wait any longer. I started to play around with his jeans trying to find the zip. My eyes were closed, still kissing him multiple times on his soft irresistable lips.

He lifted my shirt off lightly then chucked it to the side of the room, fingers digging in my hip to keep me still. Not that I had any intention of going anywhere. I felt his hands wonder all over my breasts,

"You're so god damn gorgeous" He murmed. My body felt weak as those words pulsed through me.

He took his mouth to my nipples, biting lightly at them as one hand wondered down between my legs.

"Tell me if it hurts" He nodded.

I felt one of his fingers slide into me, slowly going in and out, then faster and faster. I couldnt help the heavy breathes that escaped my mouth,

"Good girl."

He then put two fingers in. Then three. By then i was already near orgasm, his fingers so deep inside was a feeling ive never felt. It hurt, but it felt so good at the same time. I grabbed onto his biceps whilst he pulsed his fingers into me with a fast motion.

"Don't worry, ill stop now..ill make you finish later."

"Sit here."

He leaded me to his kitchen countor. 'Are you serious?' I thought. I was thinking this was a bad idea until he grabbed one of my breasts from behind me. I needed him.

I turned out, forcefully pushing him against the counter, making the glass that was on the side, now on the floor, smash to the ground. I didnt even care, no words could describe how badly i wanted him in this moment.

"Nice change of heart" Billy smiled as he kissed me.

"Sorry, sweetie."

My face turned into a frown, unsure of what he meant. As i was about to ask, he gripped onto my thighs and lifted me onto the counter.

"I'm in charge." He growled.

"For tonight.." I replied.

He rips off his dark navy boxers, letting his sex arise. This would hurt. A lot. He noticed how nervous i was. He raised his hand to my face and moved some hair behind my ear. For a few seconds, his face was soft. He looked at me in a different light, like he was showing how he really felt. He stood there for a while, looking at me. I wondered what he was thinking?

Then it was gone. The soft, real emotion shown face went away into the panting lustful face. I would sell my soul for him to come back to me the way he was.

He digged his nails into legs, making me wince a little.

"You're going to love it, dont worry." He growled.

"Now i want to hear you moan. Dont worry, no ones hear and no one can hear you" Billy demanded.

I nodded in reply.

"Good girl."