A Catchy Title : Project 1.

Dear Dairy hehe ( September 11, 2020)

This is being written at 12:58 pm.

     So needless to say, it worked the last time. My job has just been a constant cluster of closing shifts to opening shifts. I dont mind, I need the money. I tell my coworkers that I like to live a bad and bougie lifestyle with a homeless person income so I have no problem showing up to do just about anything they ask.
     I don't know if I want to mention my boyfriend or not. Again, not knowing if I should get hella personal or just personal... We have been together for a while. It makes people laugh when I tell them that we don't argue. He just flows so well with me. I feel like I lack on him all the time but he always assures me that I'm his favorite.
    I should also mention that I mess up my speech all the time. My recent mess up was saying 'Ceasar' instead of 'Seizure'. This sounds absolutely ridiculous but its actually one of my most common insecurities. I tend to make people laugh and repeat what I say all the time like I didn't  just hear myself internally die. You would think with my job that I would have better speaking skills but during the interview all I had to do was nod and smile.
    Anyway, back to my boyfriend... We plan to move out of California when we can save up enough money. I personally  had this debate where I made a list of all the reasons why California and I just didn't  vibe. Literally. The title is ' California's missed Vibes'. It lists things from always being on fire to being just really expensive. I want those stereotypical big house with those weird Christmas lights that you dont take down till like February because no one really complains in the neighborhood. One where your neighbors don't  want to fight you all the time. California has like some weird territorial people...
     We decided that in two years we would relocate. We did have some things to clear up and set straight. First being we needed to save up money. Specifically, $10,000 if we could or even somewhere around there. Then, we needed to tie the knot in front of our immediate family here because we are both from here. Now we had multiple ideas of how we were planning on doing this that I will address  later. Lastly, we needed a new car. We currently have a car that was made for adults with a midlife crisis so it can't  get us more than three cities away and we want to yeet  ourselves out of this state.
    We are still discovering small problems that get fixed every single day to get to our end goal. One being I am terrible at saving money. My checks come out to around $500 if that because I get tips, I also have small bills to pay. So far I have managed  to save about $800. Which is fantastic if I do say so myself! Its all about the small victories in life. Our next plan of action was to be held accountable. We went grocery shopping to stop spending money in Fast Food and ya girl of course been living off cereal  and Eggo waffles. I have absolutely zero regrets.
   To further improve on this goal is the not so fun part of just working. Day in and day out. Come home and go to sleep. I will say that my boyfriend is such a champ and his current work situation is trash so he is trying his hardest to get others. Im so proud of the improvement he is making as well. He saved up money for about a year just to get the new Xbox and has made it clear that after that he will save for the move. I cant be mad, he really deserves it for all the crap he has to do. I really wouldn't  be able to function without him.
     I hope all 5 of you are doing okay. How has your couple of month been? Ive been told that successful people often do meditation or practice praying therefore  I took that up as a weird side hobby  and have been secretly wishing that whoever reads this is okay. When I was going through a rough patch in highschool I became really involved with a religion and pick and choose  what to believe ( I know it sounds just as terrible as it is). Anyway, if you arent doing okay, I'm really gonna fight someone.
    Have you gone out a actually smelled Daisies? They have a weird smell to me but I can see why people use the expression. I'm  not sure of your each individual situation but I hope going outside for even a minute should be helpful. Sometimes I open up the window just to take a deep breath and close it again...