Loving can hurt

Chapter.3

"Cause I loved you and I lost my mind"
"now I'm trying to leave it all I try"
"but you still hunt me"
"no matter where i go"

Fumi
As I stepped into the café, The waiter welcomed me and I went and sat on a table close to the door, there was a guy sitting by the window sipping coffee, I really envy him, his spot is really nice.
"Would you like to order now?" The waiter asked.
"Umm, yes please, I would like to have hot chocolate with two small-sized cinnamon rolls"
"Right away!" He said as he went away.

Ayato
Huh?? What the heck is wrong with his timing?! Did he just get in the same new café I got into??!
Meeting twice by coincidence at the very same day is just too much, well it's not like we met, I'm the only one who noticed, I really would like if he would notice even a little that there's another person sitting here, he would think "oh there's a guy here, I wonder how he looks", ugh it's not like he would think about something like that, just, I'll stop thinking about him for now cause it makes my head feel dizzy...

Fumi
I checked my phone to see what time is it, after my food arrived, I started sipping a little bit of my hot chocolate, then I tried the cinnamon rolls which were very good, I thought I'd take some home with me and let tomoe try some as well since he really likes trying new food, the café was really quite and cozy, I thought for a moment, "why did saiki not ask me to meet him in a place like this", I don't know why did that come to my mind but yeah I thought about it, then I started being a bit scared thinking he might do something bad to me, but after I remembered our time together, I couldn't think of him doing anything that might harm me.
The guy by the window was a bit annoying me while I'm having my sweet time relaxing, he was coughing a lot, and fidgeting, and typing in his phone, and it wasn't muted, I didn't even look at him but I felt that he was staring at me so much that I got really scared, so what I did was to give my back, after he paid and got out of the café, I felt at ease a bit, though he looked really tired when he was walking out, not like, tired but, it was like he was so upset he had to walk while looking down with his hands in his pocket.

Ayato
Now that was an awkward coffee time, I felt like the waiter was about to kick me out, and honestly he had the right to do so, that Sakurakouji guy didn't even notice me a bit, disappointing but still, I can meet him tomorrow, since I brought the topic, I need to quickly think about something to talk about when I meet him, I don't really have a specific subject in my mind , so I thought I'd ask my sister, even though I really wish I don't, but she knows how to handle me right I guess, cause every time I ask for advice from anyone one I know, it ends up with, "I can't understand how you think", I admit that I can be really mean or cold, but I'm still just like anyone, they think that if your gay, then even your brain is not the same as them, well yeah my brain is smarter obviously, but it's not the issue, it's not like they can't understand, they just don't want to understand.

Story teller
After both came back home, Ayato had a shower as soon as he arrived, while Fumi waited for about an hour in front of his house, but his mom didn't come back, so he had a shower at Tomoe's and he slept there as well.
Before sleeping, both Ayato and Fumi were thinking about their awaited meeting tomorrow, Ayato was really excited and nervous, while Fumi was curious and confused, both thought at the same time
"I wonder how it'll go"...

Next morning
"Where is he..." Fumi said while sitting in the storage room waiting.
He arrived about ten minutes ago and there's no sign for Ayato, he started thinking about useless stuff, like he got kidnapped, had a car accident, or he might have fooled Fumi to come here so he would lock the door on him, he actually checked the door three times by now, well he can't help it, he can be a huge worrywart sometimes.
The door was opening, Fumi started waiting for someone to get in but the door just opened and then,
"Feew...made on tim- aack!"
"Ah!! What??!"
Ayato was surprised to see Fumi inside to the point he fell and hit his head while Fumi was surprised even more.
"Oh my god are you okay?"
"Aah, I don't think so"
Ayato tried getting up but it was hard a bit he sat giving his back to the door while trying to rest while Fumi was a bit confused of how fast things happened just now so as soon as he looked at Ayato he was looking in shock and said a bit loudly
"Blood!!"
"Huh, what?"
"Your bleeding jesus get up let's go to the infirmary now!"
"Ahmm, just in a bit"
"Seriously..."
Fumi looked for his handkerchief  and as soon as he found it he started wiping Ayato's face, it's wasn't bleeding hard or anything, just a tiny wound, but Fumi was really worried.
After they got to the infirmary, the nurse working there said he shouldn't be so reckless, and she also scolded both of them for going into the storage room without being careful, and without permission as well.

Ayato
Such a lucky day I'm having, first I thought I got to college early, I was late cause my phone's clock wasn't set, then I hit my head in the ground like an idiot, and now I can't even talk to Sakurakouji probably cause everytime I try, this talkative friend of his starts a new topic, he really got on my nerves to be honest, even though he seemed cheerful, and he seemed like a good guy, but still he's stealing my time with sakurakouji.
"Okay then, I have classes now, see you later, fumi!"
"Yup see ya!"
"Hey, was that the one you talked about yesterday?"
"Ah, yes, his name is saiki tomoe, same last name as you"
"Hmmm" I was trying to make a face that says, woo didn't expect that, but I couldn't cause I didn't really give a shit, after that little conversation, we stayed in silence for a bit, we were drinking coffee while looking at people as they come and go, sakurakouji was sitting on his chair with his face to the glass looking outside while he rested his head on one hand, his hair was a bit messy cause of the wind, but it suited him somehow, while wearing an oversized black sweater with a gray button-up underneath, ack shit I was staring too much.
"Hey sakurakouji"
"Um yeah?"
"Can I call you fumi?"
"Yeah sure I guess"
"Thanks"
"By the way, what did you want to talk about?"
Oh, I forgot about it for a sec.
"Oh I just wanted to tell you that I'm gay cause I didn't bring it up yesterday"
"Oh, but why?"
"Why what?"
"Why did you want to tell me that?"
"Umm I don't really know I just felt like it"
"Weirdo, so.... That's it?"
"No actually"
"Huh?"
Shit shit shit shit shit, think of anything, anything to say, ugh.
"Are you dating anyone at the moment?"
"Ha?... Well no, it's not like I don't want to, I tried dating before but it just didn't go well"
After that we started talking about random topics, asking meaningless questions, while having some comfortable silence between every question and another, it felt nice, I don't usually like talking with someone in this way, like, just talking about weather, or saying this coffee is better than the one we had yesterday, and some other stuff that literally didn't had no connection to each other, though it was somehow really pleasant, the most enjoyable thing of it all was looking at him while he was in a daze, he looked like a little kid staying up late waiting for his favorite show, even though it looked like he was just dozing off and not thinking about anything, I had a feeling he was about to cry, he looked innocent and fragile, I felt that if I touched him softly, he'd break into small pieces, he noticed me looking at him for about a minute every time we'd stop chatting, I thought he might be uncomfortable with it, so I started stealing glances now and then, cause it was very hard not to look at him when he was in that beautiful shape, I could seriously write a whole book describing how perfect he looked.
After an hour of sipping coffee and chatting in the cafeteria, we decided to leave and go out.
"Hey, fumi"
"Hm?"
"Can I have your phone number, and maybe your line ID?"
"Yeah sure thing"
After exchanging phone numbers and other social media accounts, We parted ways after a saying "laters" it made me feel relieved when he said it, cause I thought it might be our last time meeting, but I was really surprised after he said "are you free next Saturday?" And now I'm going to think about that promised Saturday every minute, thank you 'head over heels in love'.

To be continued...
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I'm back! Late update sorry about that, even though only few ppl are reading lmao, also, I wanted to say that I don't proofread anything I write, so when I tried previewing the published chapters, I found a lot of mistakes I'm really sorry :')
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