Clichè • TK

5

I was out for groceries today, I ran out of banana milk so I had to go to the supermarket. I saw you as I passed by the park today. You were with a guy, and you two were laughing. I guess he told a joke.

I stopped to stare at you. I wanted to go over there and say "hi" but I couldn't, I think he might be your boyfriend. Again, I keep making assumptions without confirming it from you.

You both took a turn proceeding with your groceries as I simply stood, stuck in place. Chest slowly being filled with a green familiar feeling.

I was jealous.

I did not like it, not even a bit. It a feeling I did not want to feel.

Hurriedly, I walked to the cashier strolling my cart in hopes to leave early and not bump in to you, but oh sweet baby Jesus, luck was not on my side. As I stood in line, you stood behind with whom I assumed was your boyfriend. Your laughter fills my ears as you laughed with your boyfriend. I was frozen in place, chills and tingles running up my spine as you tapped my shoulder. Exhaling shakily, I looked behind, acting surprised the best I could.

"Oh, hey!"

A smile graces your lips as you waved.

"hey, do you always shop your groceries here?"

Nodding to your question and a quiet "mhm", your lips formed an "o", then you turned to your right, only then I remembered the guy stand beside you. 

"This is Jiwoo, my boyfriend"

I dreaded the words that came out of your mouth, but there's nothing that I can do.  I tried my best to smile at your boyfriend but I can only muster a tight-lipped smile. 

"And Jiwoo, this is Jeonggeuk, I met him at the cafe, he's a regular there"

Returning my failed attempt of a smile, his smile showed his teeth. He offered his hand for me to shake, I hesitantly shook it, I did not want to seem like an asshole to you or to your boyfriend so I once again attempted to smile while shaking your boyfriend's hand.

"Nice to meet you" 

"You too" I replied.

As the cashier beeped my groceries, I can hear the both of you talking behind me, I wanted to be in his place. I wanted to be the one telling you stories, about my day, the things that annoyed me and the little things that made me smile. Then you'd tell me about yours as we cuddle in a cramped couch. But, my daydream was cut short as the cashier's voice bought me back to the reality that the chances of me and you happening was slim. I payed, took my groceries and waved at both you and boyfriend, then left.

I walked my home with a heavy heart. The weather seemed to show sympathy over my pathetic slumped state. The sky was grey, and so was I. It held rain waiting to pour, and so were my eyes. The cold wind hit my exposed skin making me shiver.

I hope he keeps you warm.

I kept my head low as I walked, watching my feet trying to keep my  mind off of you, but miserably fails as your smile and the sound of your laughter repeats in my head like a broken record. A sigh escapes my lips as thoughts of you in someone else's arms all giggly, cheeks red from blushing as he whispers sweet nothings to your ear, smiling fondly while staring into each others eyes.

How I wish I can take his place, but all I can do is dream about it. I wonder how you would feel against me, I imagined you would fit perfectly. But this is all I can do. 

As soon as the first drop of rain hits the pavement, so did my tears.

A/N:

Hiiiiii finally  updated. no one's reading this though but its okay.

To whoever reads this, thank you so much for dedicating a bit of your time reading my story! love you!