Do you ever think that being on this earth is a total waste of time and space; that you just want to die?
Have you ever felt the urge to torment someone so that they could kill you to set you free from all the burden this world as to offer?
Or are you just a happy son of a bitch who pretends to be happy and pleases everyone to make them like you.
Well to answer that yes, I am all three (3), depressing right?
Sometimes I want to talk but when I do people tend to you my weakness against me, I want to laugh I want to feel normal again but ever since I found out that I’m a nobody and that something is actually wrong with me I don’t think I should be here alive. The truth is I’ve suffered allot mentally and emotionally and that makes me abuse myself physically.
I don’t want to be that girl anymore; Please I’m begging you.
I’m asking you to help me I have no one to love me or to care for me and it sucks, to be treated like my life doesn’t matter or to be controlled as if I’m some dumb toy that’s thrown down by the mean girls or rude boys; just tossed aside until I’m of use again.
I’m tired of crying night and day; if YOLO means ‘you only live once’ why does my life as to be hell on earth. To me it seems as if I bring destruction everywhere, I go because people, these FUCKING humans fail to see who and what I truly am. But I’m a nobody, they always remind me when they can’t get there way with me that ‘nobody likes you’ and I can live with that. I have a purpose and I am still trying to find my way; I’m lost in this world without your guidance. Call me crazy but it seems as if I’ve been on this earth before and been reborn, I met a woman when I was in prep school in a small city far away from here in a vision and becoming an adult I actually met her again but this time in person after I left my old home. What does all of this mean. Am I even normal?
13.09.2020
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No FicciónPoems..... About love, family hate. This book consists of poems. I've been writing from I was 9years old.
