This is our someday

Why?

As Lexa was walking back to the center of town she couldn't get Clarke off her mind, maybe she was just stressed with everything, maybe she had finally gotten over Lexa, maybe she was seeing someone else...no she wouldn't have let her kiss her if she was.

Finally Lexa got to the center of town it reminded her of Polis god how she missed it, she looked around trying to spot Indra but she was no where to be seen so she went to someone she did know that she saw.

Raven

"Raven!" Lexa yelled making the girl snap her head to where she heard her name.

"Commander, how can I be of your assistance?" She said with a smirk on her face walking towards her with a device in her hand Lexa had never seen before.

"There is no need to call me commander I have not been that for a while now, I uh was hoping you would know where I could find Indra?" Lexa asked looking around seeing if she had turned up as she was talking with Raven.

"Yes!! She would be in the mechanics roooomm.. which you have no Idea what a mechanics room is or where it is do you?" Raven stated smiling with her teeth.

"uhhh no but I'm sure if  you could just point me in the direction of where it is I would be able to find it and you could get back to your work." Lexa said waiting to hear Raven answer her, all she needed to do was say hello to her old friend and chat with her she knew that something was up with Clarke and she felt like she should just leave her alone with Madi to think.

"No need, I can take you plus I hate being in charge of these fools who don't even know how to hotwire.. like seriously hotwire not that damn difficult." Raven said getting off track.

"Raven your rambling and I need to catch up with my old friend so if you could politely show me the way that would be great." Lexa said starting to get slightly annoyed.

"Yea sorry this way." Raven said handing the device back to one of her workers before starting to walk in silence.

"Soooo how's your lover girl, I bet she's really happy that your back." Raven started trying to get the mighty commander to open up.

"I don't really know ever sense she took me to the house she's been...distant, I don't know maybe she had just finally gotten over me maybe she doesn't want me anymore, maybe she's found someone else." Lexa said the last part quieter and looked down at the ground sad to think that the love of her life may have found someone new.

"Woahh woah woah hold on a minute, I don't think your seeing this correctly-" Raven said stopping in her track's to face Lexa.

"What am I not seeing she doesn't want me anymore....she has finally moved on." Lexa said tears fighting to fall but she wouldn't let them.

"Okay look at it this way, Lexa you died 6 years ago and trust me when I say she was attached at the hip to the flame she wouldn't even let Bellamy touch it matter of fact no one...Look If I was Clarke..I...I would distance myself too....Lexa she told me what happened that day....you..you gave up on her yo-"

"I DID NOT GIVE UP ON HER!" Lexa screamed making people turn to them.

"Lexa you did, did you ever think about what Clarke was feeling she felt guilty for your death if she would have just said goodbye and left you would be here today without anything wrong without missing 6 years of her life!" Raven screamed the last part back.

"what are you saying." Lexa asked not understanding.

"God Lexa YOU GAVE UP ON HER RIGHT WHEN SHE WANTED YOU, YOU DIED IN HER ARMS NOT EVEN TRYING TO SURVIVE.. Do you have any idea what that did to her no you don't because you weren't there to wake up to her screaming your name because she had to relive your death in her sleep, maybe you should think that she's scared to get close to you again to just have your ripped from her grasp again because Lexa.....she just can't...there is no way in hell she could survive you leaving her again. You didn't see her everyday after your death when she would sit there not even listening to a word we where saying..she.." Raven stopped she couldn't tell Lexa the last part it wasn't her place.