The magic of love

Heartbreak

At first I thought it was a joke, he's going to pop out of my closet and say "haha just kidding babe" and then I would get mad at him and he'll apologize and he'll kiss me.
That didn't happen. I reread the letter, over and over again until the words are engraved in my mind. Until I have memorized all the words. And even after that I still didn't believe it. I still didn't process it and I didn't want to. I didn't want this to be real.
Confused was that first emotion that I felt. I was confused on why he would write me a letter instead taking to me in person. I was confused on the fact that he didn't mention it at all to me. Confused that we were fine before break and now it wasn't.
"Aurelia , you coming to dinner" Ginny asks popping me out of my thought bubble.
She looks at me "what's wrong?" She notices letter in my hand.
"I....uh" I'm speechless. So I hand her the letter land she reads. He face contorting to confusion and anger.
"Did you just get this?" She asks.
I nod "it was on my pillow"
"Ooooo I'm going to kill him" she says.
"No!! Please don't" I say. The letter still hasn't processed through my brain yet.
"I'll talk to him. About it tomorrow. You got to promise not to say anything to anyone" I say giving her a stern look.
"Fine I won't I promise" she hugs me.

That night I have my first nightmare I've had in a while. I'm in a shack in the middle of the woods, Draco and his family are standing on one side and Blaise, and I are standing on another. Draco looks mad, and his whole family is looking down on me. I whip my wand out on them. But it doesn't work. "ExpectO patronum" I yell. Nothing. Lucious gives me a smirk. "ADVA KEDAVERA" he says. Hitting my brother. I freak out and run to him. Blood trickling from his mouth. "Oh god" I say.
Blaise opens his eyes, "why did you let them kill me?"
"What?" I say.
"WHY DID YOU LET THEM KILL ME?" He screams standing up and choking me.
I wake up to myself crying and scratching at my throat
"Aurelia!! Wake up!!" I hear Ginny says. I open my eyes and try to catch my breath
"You just had a bad dream" she reassures hugging me while I cry.
Hermione runs into the room seeing me sob into ginnys arms.
"She just had a bad dream" Ginny tells her. When I finally settle down I can still see its dark out. "Go back to bed and get some more sleep" she says, I grab Ginny's arm. "Don't go" I say. She nods and lays in the bed with me. I fall into a restless sleep until my alarm wakes me. "You coming to breakfast?" Ginny asks.
I roll over and shake my head.
"Come on, you need to eat. You skipped dinner last night"
"I'm not hungry" I mumble. Not wanting to face Draco or anybody.
"Youre coming whether you like it or not. Don't you wanna talk to him?" She asks throwing my clothes at me.
I nod. "I guess so" I get up and changed. At breakfast I push my food around my plate but I don't eat.
"Everything ok?" Ron asks.
"Fine" I look up and spot Draco at the slytherin table. My stomach does backflips, he looks even better than he did before we left. He's talking and laughing with his friends. He doesn't look fazed or hurt or sad. Wow maybe it all was just dare
The thought made me sick. I get up and run to the nearest bathroom. I empty my stomach contents and sob. Why would he put me through this ? i needed answers. I get up and wash my face and try to find him. When my second class gets out I spot him laughing outside. His back is towards me so he doesn't see.
The air is getting colder and colder making me shiver.
His friends spot me first "oh dude her she comes."
Draco turns around surprised to see me.
"What is this?" I show him the letter.
"You really have a hold on her" goyle jokes.
"What do you mean I'm just a dare" I ask.
He doesn't answer.
"We gave him 1000 galleons if he slept with you honey. The dares over and now he doesn't want you" one of his friends say.
"Is that true" I ask , tears welling up in my eyes "was this whole relationship a lie?"
"Yes" he says not meeting my eye. "It was. I'm sorry if I hurt you but it's true"
Tears stream down my face "why didn't you talk to me about it in person?"
He doesn't answer, just looks at the floor. Everyone is looking at me now. There's a crowd surrounding us.
"I see, I guess things are over. Just like that. You make me fall in love with you and you leave." I crumble up the paper and throw it at him.
"You're a coward" I say before walking away. Tears flooding down my face.

People try to stop me and ask if I'm ok but I ignore them. I sit on my bed and I sob into my pillow. The pain hits me like a ton of bricks. I can't seem to catch my breathe and I feel like I'm going to pass out. Ginny comes in and just holds me while I cry.
"He....doesn't.....love.....me" I say between crying.
Hermione comes in and Ginny shake her head telling hermione I need time.
I cry for a while, till my faces puffed up.