MY BRoTHer in LaW

chapter 22

chapter 22 -

After the sleepless night, joong force himself to get ready for another day of school, after taking a shower he drag his slacking feet in the living room for a breakfast,where everyone was already there, it's comes a routine for them to eat breakfast together after mrs.aydin came in the house, the breakfast is great as always but this time joong couldn't bring himself eating his foods when in front of him is the reason why his heart is aching so badly

nine was in fron of him facing asha with a smile plastered in his face, it seems they were talking about some funny stuff because asha will occasionally laugh , the sight was hurting him from the depth of his heart but nothing he can do about it at least he's still smiling and that's all that matters .. joong thought, although it was painful to admit that he wouldn't be the reason of nine smile anymore, he has to admit it and accept they were not together anymore,pulling himself from his heart breaking thought, he suddenly stand up couldn't take to look at the unhealthy stuff in front of him causing the people around the table look at him in alarm " joong, why you didn't eat your food? " Ask his mom looking at the food in his plate then to him " I'm not hungry mom, I need to go now, I have to do something in school "

" But nine is not done with his breakfast "

" Its ok mom, perth will give me a drive " nine kept his mouth close along the conversation while looking at joong who tried hard to not look at him even just one glance, his tears threatening to flee again as he drop his head remembering what happen the night before, the way joong ask him " what happen?, what's wrong? Why you want to break up with me? " desperately, all of those words keep repeating in his ears yet he only simply say

because this is wrong

I know but we can fight for it,can't we?, I'm sure moms will understand us!! " He seen how lost joong at that moment and how his voice become shaky, desperate, pleading to him yet all he do was shook his head and says " I'm sorry.." while his tears stream down his face as he failed to hold it back, he tried to hide his face from joong's view but it was late joong is fast to catch it, he lifted wooyoung's face and wipe off those tears " its ok, don't cry, if this is what you really want then I understand just don't cry " and joong hug him for the last time before leaving his room

" So apparently you two are not together anymore? " Ask perth as joong tells him what happen " yes " simple replied joong staring at the cheerful clear ocean sky, the sun that shining so brightly are apparently contradiction of what he felt at the moment

And you just let it happen? "

" What you want me to do? "

" At least try to talk to him that everything will gonna be fine "

" I tried to but he just say I'm sorry and when he cry, I realise that his decision is really hard for him too, you know I'll fight for him and I can be selfish for him but I don't want to see him cry and make everything even more harder for him so I did what I think is the best for him... Even it means... to let him go " joong said to be fact but the last words turn into a low murmur " but you know he loves you " point out perth putting his big arm on joong's shoulder " yes I know but he already made a decision, and I respect it if it help to make it easier for him "

" Will you gonna be ok? "

" Yeah..maybe not as fast as I wanted to but eventually " joong sigh then proceed to talk " I didn't really expect this thing to come, I thought I will never experience this feeling, this awful feeling of being broken hearted, I've tasted life but never really ate dramatic things cause it's somehow gives me a feeling of bitterness but now.. I couldn't avoid it " he faintly smile

" you know dramatic things always has bitterness "

" Yeah, but I thought I can avoid it, unfortunately I was wrong, and look at me now trying hard to be strong to at least endure the pain " he look down fighting back the tears in the corner of his eyes that will show his real emotion, perth patted his back sempathically " you know, it's not weakness for a man to cry, it just show our real emotion that we kept from everyone, so you can cry, you need to let it out somehow " he said, joong sniff and breath hard " nah.. I would just gain everyones attention if I did "