you wake up the next morning you but your hair up in a messy bun you dont do your make up you wear a tank top and sweat pants you dont feel in the mood today.
you walk outside and open the door and you see a teddy bear and roses and says get better soon so of course they are for your mom their from the o2l boys. you put them on her bed and then you head to school and justin catches up with you and sees that you had been crying alot and your eyes were really puffy.
he stops you from walking and takes you into a big hug and says im sorry that this happened babe just know im here for you if you need some one to talk to.you say thanks and you kiss him and you and him just keep walking and you head to class and then when lunch comes you and justin ditch the rest of the day and go back to your house were no ones home because your mom is in the hospital and connor moved out 2 months ago. you and him go in the kitchen and you make you and him some lunch you eat and then you ad him turn on netflix and you both wanna pick a show or movie so you do heads or tails and this time you win so you pick vampire diaries and hes like ughh your like get over it babe.
your watching it and then you fall asleep in his arm and then he sees that your asleep so he changes the show and then you finally wake up and say hey why did you change the show he says because you feel asleep then you just go back to sleep then he wakes up and says he its 5 i need to get going so you say okay and give him a good bye kiss and then you go in the bathroom and start crying you cant take the pain so you start cutting you know its bad and you shouldnt do it but you have to you need the pain to go away.
so after you cut you start bleeding so you get a big bandage and puts it on the cuts and then head in your room to go to cry your self to sleep.
you wake up the next morning and call cameron to come over to hang out instead of going to school and then you call justin and tell him that your not going to school and for him to have a good day at school.
cameron gets there and you let him in and you to sit down on the couch and you say can i tell you something but you cant tell anyone ecspecially my brother he says
"of course you can tell me anything"
"okay well you know how my mom got into that car crash and ive been really upset?"
"yea what about it??"
"well i came home and i was in the bath and i started crying and thinking about the day and i tried to drown myself but it didnt work and then the next day i didnt go to school and then at like 6 i went in the bathroom and started crying (you say while pulling up your sleeve and taking the bandage of) i cut my self to take the pain away i know i shouldnt have but i couldnt help it"
"why you could of died and then you wouldnt be here anymore and we would all be sad"
" i know that cam but i had to i took the risk and i would take it again if i wanted to"
"no you wont do it again and i will make sure of it"
"fine but im not making any promises"
you and him spend the rest of the day together just hanging out then he heads home so you call connor and see if he can take you to go see if your moms okay he said he couldnt today but he will be able to tommorow so you say okay bye love ya bubba!!!!!!!!!!!
you take a shower then head to bed
