The Alpha's Omega.

Chapter 11: Last Night

Marissa's P.O.V.

Have you ever felt like you knew something, and knowing that something made you sick?

I had a feeling I knew what was going on; about what happened last night when Jacob went out. He left and I highly doubt he was out alone. He was with someone, and I had a feeling that it was a girl. I knew I was a disgrace and a mistake but I couldn't control how I was born. I knew the moment that he talked so badly of the Omegas in his pack, that I was worthless, even to him. Bad enough, yet now he knows. Now I have to face it full on.

Jacob looked at me with worried eyes, almost pleadingly. "You need to listen to me for a minute," I said in the most serious tone I could muster.

"I'm just glad you're here and that you're okay," he whispered.

"I said listen," I growled, "I know what happened with you the other night, and don't you think for one second that I am going to let you treat me like that. I know that me being a Luna would be a disgrace to the pack and to you, but I cannot help who I am. I was born this way Jacob, and if you can't accept that then I cannot accept you. Do you understand me now, Jacob?"

Jacob growled at my sudden authority, "I am the Alpha, you do not speak to me in that tone."

"You will not treat me like that, Jacob," I spoke in a monotone.

"Well at least tell me what I did! I don't even know what I did after I had my friend meet me at the bar," Jacob groaned, "I just remember meeting him-"

"Him?! Your gay now?" I asked suprized, this is astonishing for me to discover considering I'm his mate.

"What? No, I'm not gay! If I was you wouldn't be my mate," he argued.

"Well then why did you meet at the bar with him? Whoever he is," I questioned pointedly.

"I needed someone to talk to! Somone who could just listen to me and be honest," Jacob admitted, "I figured you just wanted to be left alone so I did it, I left you alone. Other than that I don't even remember."

"You don't remember anything? You don't remember what you said to me," I asked a little pained.

"Oh shit, did I say something mean? Fuck, Marissa I'm sorry. I-I really need to stop drinking so m-" Jacob babbled.

"Stop, you didn't say anything bad or mean. But I do agree that you should stop drinking. I want you to be able to talk to you, while your sober. Otherwise you will miss out on all of the important parts of our relationship," I interuppted him, but he didn't seem to mind as he snaked his arms around me, embracing me in a warm hug.

"You mean so much to me already Marissa and I'm sorry if I made you believe that I would do that to you. No matter what you are, I know you will make a wonderful Luna. Nothing matters more to me than you and our future together."

That was all it took for me to believe that he was indeed not sure of the events of last night, and that no matter what I was important to him and being and Omega didn't change any of that.

It means so much to me that he accepts me, but I can't keep my hopes this high for him. He's an Apha and things change almost every minute for them. Their emotions are sensitive, but their strength is undeniable.

I can't help but to be cautious still. I don't know enough about him, yet it feels as if we grew up together. I'm so confused about my feelings toward Jacob, I don't want every feeling to be because of our mate bond. If I'm going to have a relationship with him, I want it to be my decision. Not the fates.

The day passed uneventfully, for me anyways, Jacob was called into a meeting.

"It might be a couple of days before I get back. Just stay here okay? And if you need to go, take Austin and Coda with you. They'll be your guards for when I'm gone. I'll call you in the morning," Jacob informed me, and then he left.

So currently, I am watching a movie cuddled up in my bed... Okay, it's Jacob's bed. I can't help it. I miss him already. I miss his warmth and his smell. Honestly, I miss everything about him.

So I call him...

"Hello? Who is this?" he answered.

"Hey, um, hi it-it's me," I answered.

He chuckled, "I was about to call you too. Miss me already?"

"No!" I snorted, "Yes... Actually I did."

"Oh." he stated simply.

"Oh? That's all you have to say?"

"No not like that. I-I mean, I just didn't think you ever admit to anything like that." he covered.

"Oh." I replied.

He laughed, "I missed you too."

I yawned, quite unattractively as well.

"Are you tired, princess?" he asked quietly.

"Mhm" I mumbled.

"Go to sleep," he sighed sweetly, "I'll talk to you in the morning, okay?"

"Mm... Goodnight. Come.. Come home soon." I grumbled in reply.

"Goodnight."

And that's all it took for me to fall asleep, just his voice and being completely surrounded by his scent, the warmth of his comforter like having him right here next to me.

All I dreamt of was him. Coming home and holding me.

Damn do I miss him.