30 Days, My Angel

6 YEARS

*fast forward, 6 years*

Anim na taon, anim na taon na palaging ang set up namin ni brent is.
Sweet siya minsan. Minsan mas malamig pa sa yelo.

Napapansin ko rin na madalas hindi siya nauwi. Pag nagtatanong ako palagi nalang sagot niya "anong pake mo?" palaging ganyan.

Tulad ngayon. Isang linggo na siyang wala sa bahay. Nagtanong ako sa mga friend niya and sila din di matukoy kung nasaan si brent.

May nakapagsabi saken na may babae si brent. Pero di ako naniniwala.

Hangga't diko nahuhuli di ako maniniwala.

Nagutla ako ng may nagdoorbell. Nagtaka ako kaya binuksan ko ito..

I saw brent, he's drunk, he's with someone else... Is this? Celine?

They looked at me like i was disturbing their time. I open the door and gave a way so they can come inside.

" who's this, babe?" celine asked "ow? She? Ah, she's my maid" i was shocked when i heard what brent says.

I looked at him with confusion plastered on my face, he looked to me too, giving me that "just act" who the hell gave u the right to bring women inside our house?

" do i look like a maid? Ha! I can't believe u" celine looked at me with confusion, it seems like hindi niya talaga alam. I offered my hand to celine "Mrs. Manalo. Asawa ako. Asawa, kaya kung may delikadeza ka sa katawan, aalis kana rito bago pa kita kaladkarin palabas."  nagulat siya sa sinabi ko at umayos ng tayo.

Di na siya nagsalita ako umalis nalang. Bigla akong hinigit sa braso ni brent "WHAT THE FUCK ? CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME BE HAPPY?! IM SO DONE WITH THIS AEY! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T WANT U ANYMORE! PLEASE, LETS FILE AN ANNULMENT, I DON'T WANT TO WITH YOU ANYMORE. " Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya, di ako nakasagot. Annulment?

Bakit? Di niya ba ako minahal? Anim na taon?

" u want an annulment? brent 6years na tayong kasal, okay naman tayo ah? Bakit? Ano nangyare? Sa loob ng anim na taon brent, asan ako don? Ginamit mo lang ba ako? Ano? Eto ba gusto mo? If i set you free magiging masaya kaba? Sabihin mo. Wala kaba talagang nararamdaman saken? Please wag ganto brent, please" nagmamakaawa nako sakanya.

Wala parin pagbabago ekspresyon ng kanyan mukha.

"awa. Awa nalang nararamdaman ko sayo, simula nung.. Iniwan moko, aey ansakit non. Sobrang sakit. Diko alam kung saan ako kukuha ng lakas. Iniwan ako nung taong kinapitan ko, iniwan moko, b-bakit? g-ganun ba ako kadali bitawan? B-bakit?

All this time akala ko okay na siya, akala ko nakamove on na siya sa pang iiwan ko.

"im sorry if if i had to leave .. Its just that.. im sorry"  naiyak nako sa harapan niya, i looked up to him so i can see his face.." i had to leave because i'm scared. I'm scared to fall, fck it i fell inlove with you! But i know its wrong... That's so wrong, we're bestfriends, you, ady and me! I got scared because i have a feelings for you, ginawa ko lahat para mawala... Pero.. Hindi e... Mas lalo.. Mas lalo lang kitang.. Mina.. Hal.." my voice broke when i said the last word.

I can't tell you brent, im so sorry. Thats my second reason that's why i left years ago..

I wanted to forget my feelings for him, and im scared that he might fall inlove with me too, ayokong masaktan si brent, alam konf masasaktan siya...

"i tried so hard to forget my feelings for you, but i just cant.." nakatingin lang siya saken na parang ayaw niya tanggapin mga sinabi ko.. If he wants to go.. Then be free. I'll set you free..

" kahit awa pa yang nararamdaman mo, ilalaban ko, atleast may nararamdamn ka diba? Kahit awa pa yan... ( i sobbed while saying those words to him, tinignan ko siya at ) if i let you go, are you going to be happy? "  i asked him while looking straight into his eyes. "yes" he answered. I nodded

"can u do me a favor?" tinignan niya ko, waiting siya sa idadagdag ko. "can u atleast stay with me, atleast 30 days? Please, 30 days lang... After non.. I'll let you go, just please"

Antagal niya sumagot. Nakatingin siya sakin parang ipinaprocess niya pa ang mga sinabi ko.

"30 days? What are we going to do together? After that? You're going to set me free? " i nodded as an answer.

He let out a sighed and nodded also.

I have to plan some things to do para maging masaya ang 30 days namin.

Papaalala ko sakanya kung saan kami nagkakilala. Mga bagay na ginagawa namin noon. Ang nasa plano ko e. Babalik kami sa dati naming school. I'll document all of our dates. Para may mapapanood ako. Kung tatagal pako after ng 30 days na yon.

I recorded everything. As in everything...

I'll make out 30 days very special...

To be continued.......