A tear rolls down my face as I hear the bad news.... My heart was broken.... I've never felt this way before.... this feeling of confusion, guilt, and agony.... heartbreak and sorrow, but at the same time... a bit or relief. This is the first time... I have ever felt the feeling of.... Forbidden love.
It's my first day of high school, freshman, 14 year old girl, name, Cloe. The day goes by and soon I'm in lab, I walk in to find my seat, as I turn my head I notice a guy looking at me. He was staring at my for a second then quickly turned around, I turned away as I walked to my seat. The teacher was taking role, he wanted everyone to stand up one by one and introduce themselves. One by one as I watched each individual person stand up and say there name, age, what year, and there talents I soon came to realize it was my turn. I stood up, nervous, and I said "Hi, my name is Cloe, I'm a freshman, 14 years old, I like to draw, write, and play sports." I sat back down in my chair, people still staring at me, as the next person stood up, They stopped looking at me and looked at the next person. I could finally breathe normal.
The first day of school went by really fast. I was quiet most of the time. I met new people and soon it was the 3d day of school. It was that time of the day again, I had to go to lab. I sat down in my seat, and that guy from 3 days ago that was looking at me sat next to me. He said "Hi" I replied, "Hi.." he smiled and said that the first day of school when he saw me his jaw dropped as he thought "Dang...She's beautiful." I laughed a bit, we started talking to eachother. Soon the bell rang. As I was leaving to my next class I discover that his class was in the same direction as mine, We walked together to are classes and just talked.
Before you know it the day was over. I rode my bus home, as I got home I felt like checking faecbook. I noticed I had a friend request, it was from that guy. I realized his name, it was different from a normal names you hear, it was Chance. As I was checking facebook I noticed my chat bar popped up, it was him. We started talking for a while and then he wrote, "I know we bearly know eachother, but would you go out with me?" I had no feeling for him, I just met him, the only feelings I felt was friendship. I said no, it's too early for something like that.
A month later,
The seating chart was changed, and the tables were set up different. Someone was sitting in my assigned seat, so I decided to find a new one. As I was walking around the room looking for a new seat to choose, I noticed a small table in the back of the room, I walked over there and sat down. My friend Michaela sat across from me, Chance came and sat next to me, two other friends of mine walked over and sat with us. The table was crowded, the table was only made for three people. We had five people at the table, filling up every space it had. Everyday, everyone at are small table started playing cards, more people would squeeze in somehow and play along with us, everyday was full of laughing and fun. I looked forward to lab. It's boring for most people, but for me, it was fun.
October 3d,
I got to know Chance better, I started to like him... I told one friend, just one. The next morning she went up to him and told him that if he asked me out again I'd say yes. I could tell something was up when she walked back over to me with a smirk on her face. She wouldn't tell me what she said... she just said it was nothing. After school I got a message from Chance saying "Your friend told me that if I'd ask you out again you would say yes, is that true?" I replied "maybe..." there was a pause for a minute... then he replied "So..will you?" i replied back, "yes". At this point I was only just starting to like him, I haven't developed full feelings yet. The thing is... he was my first boyfriend.
The next day,
Lab was over, I walked with Chance to my next class, we hugged before we departed. We both had math, just different classes, also were in different grades. Soon math was over with, I was the last one out of the class, Chance was waiting for me. I hurried up, got my stuff, and ran out of the class room so were not late. As we were walking there was somewhat a silence... he then reached out his hand to grab mine, as we locked hands I began to blush a little. I'm not use to dating, and I have no experience of it. We walked with each other to are next class, hugged, and departed once more.
