𝙎𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙙𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙢𝙨 (𝙐𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙚𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜)

Apologize!

Shaurya....

'She is sleeping di', I calmed Antra Di on the phone call as she was out of her sense when she heard about Sherika. She couldn't come for her Sheri due to the riots in the city, all the ways from outside the city were strictly blocked for one week more. I could see her helplessness. I could feel her pain.

I promised her to take care of Sherika in her absence as I was the only reason behind her present situation.

My heart shranks thousands of times when I remember what happened in the morning. Infact, all my eyes could see was Sheri closing her eyes. I was screaming, I was shouting, but I was shattered. I called up Ruhan and he came up with his one of a Doctor friend. We couldn't risk Sheri's life by admitting her in any hospital inspite of knowing the present situation.

There were all the rule of Politicians and their fights, their injured people in the hospitals. I can't leave Sheri in that dirt.

Her reports were thankfully normal, she didn't get any internal injuries, but the external injury was somehow deep. She will be fine within some days. All she need is rest and no stress right now, as told by the Doctor.

'Why you did this? ', the only question I was asking on a repeated mode.

I was there with her but I couldn't save her. Ruhan told me about that monster, Dhruv. How could someone be so ruthless to the person they were together with, once in their life. I won't leave him at any cost.

The moment Sheri fell in my arms, Dhruv escaped. Still, I'm searching for him but Sheri is my first concern right now.

I wish I would have listen to what she wanted to say in the morning. 'You can't be like this, Okay? Listen Sheri, our fight is still pending. Wake up, please. I beg you, please wake up. I will never leave you again, forgive me please', I cried.

It was the first time I was crying for someone, I'm known to just only from the last month.

I still can't name this feeling, I still don't know what is this?

I'm here for a girl, the only one who can complete my Dad's last wish, whose words gave me an inner strength to heal. I can't ignore this strong feeling for her too. I can feel her pain with her writings. I want to heal her pain, her scars. But then, I met Sheri, who totally changed my life. My heart bounces hundredth times more when she is around. I couldn't resist myself with the flow in her eyes. I can spend my whole life listening her chit chat. My heart shattered her seeing like this.

But why she risked her life for me? Just to save me?

I think my head would blast with burning questions inside it.

Everytime I try to reach the girl, I'm stopped by something. Infact, my ways stopped to Sherika again. There is something between us which also never let me feel guilty for that. Yes, I never felt regret about spending time with her instead of finding my motive of being here.

All I feel is my whole life right in front of me. I still couldn't knew why I called her 'My girl' that time. Why I felt that burning volcano inside my veins when I saw someone touching her.

Why my eyes flooded when she fell in my arms, those blood making my shirt wet in its colour.

There is something Dad wants me to see but I fails always. I was about to start my car in the morning, as I realized that I forgot my Dad's watch, his last memory in my room, my lucky charm. Last time I forgot it so I thought to take the watch with me so that he could always be there with me. I stepped out of the car and got back to take it, as I saw Dhruv.

'I'm sorry Dad. I really can't solve this right now but I promise to unpuzzle it soon.... Thank you for saving Sheri! '

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Your eyes may pains, you head may aches, your heart may shranks thousands of times. You may feel restless, it's tough to be helpless. Your soul needs you in every ways, your smile needs your lips today, your shine needs your eyes today, your glow needs your cheeks today, your soul needs you all today.

You go my girl!

You fought with all those monsters outside, but still feel lost inside.

You can never be a looser!

I read, sitting beside Sheri. I don't know why I read this, either it's right or wrong but still my heart allowed me to do this.

These are some of the poetry I'm reading whenever I feels low, after Dad left us it really helped me a lot.

Today, I need this again when the most important person in my life right now, is fighting with her pains just because of me.

I was not there with Dad when he needed me, but I can't loose Sheri with same reasons by not being with her!

Yes, these poems are not mine, I'm obsessed to reading. These are some of the lines by the girl I was here for, still here may be?

It's her feeling, her pain, her fighting spirit and her broken soul.

You all will be amazed how I could say that without meeting her.

It's all written here, in this Diary. Yes, her Diary which I found last year. No one's name is mentioned here, just a sticker of a tigress. Yaa, right! How could someone forget to mention their name in their personal diary?

What will I do with this tigress sticker?

Well, the language tone shows that it's of a girl but name?

I know I'm sounding crazy! How could I search for a girl whose only diary is with me but with no name?

I have read each and every pages, the poetries inside it, the feelings, the wishlists, the dreams took my heart away, everytime I read it.

By the way, I apologized thousand of times to God for reading someone's personal diary.