Middle ground

Chapter 6

Jaemin's POV

Funny how we build our hopes up so high that we forget about the fact that they are still just a fantasy. A weak castle. So frail that one harsh blow from reality and it will all crumble to pieces, a silent wail of destruction that only your shattered being can hear.

"Yeah I do like him. But it doesn't matter it's not like he cares or anything..."

"Yeah I do like him"

"Like him"

His words were ringing in my head no matter how much I try to push the voice away, it still won't stop.

Now what are you gonna do, Nana

Wait isn't it fair that you get what you did to others
How come you have a happy ending when you broke someone's heart

It's only fair that you get the taste of your own medicine

It was all too much. I can't take this anymore. Clutching the sheets underneath me a muffled cry escaped my shivering lips.

My eyes shot open when I felt a hand on my forehead.
"Baby you feeling okay?" A voice laced with concern asked me. I couldn't find the power to speak so I just buried my head in her lap.

"Why does it always have to be me. Ma. I..I..can't...it's.." The word Ma brought a bittersweet feeling but this feeling was quickly replaced by the stupid gushing pain that was erupting in my heart and stomach.

"Shushhh honey calm down. Mama is here."

Renjun's POV

Haechan was a bit distant from me and I couldn't understand why he was doing so. Everything was just too much I have to meet up Professor Orisha to discuss about upcoming literature project and I have to meet Jeno in the evening.

"There is a little party at Mark's tonight do you wanna come?"

Haechan's voice brought me out of my internal monologue.

"There is a week left from finals, why is he throwing a party now?" I was surprised because I thought Mark was a responsible guy. Guess everything is not as we tend to see it.

"Don't know, don't care." He shrugged.

"Are you going?"

"Yup."

"Right...I..I think I will have to pass."

"Okay." What? Isn't he going to ask why. What is up with him.

"Aren't you going to ask why?" I said finally turning away from the bathroom mirror where I was trying to do my hair and was miserably failing.

"Do you want me to?"

"...I...don't.....I don't know..." I shrinked in myself a bit. Why was he being like this?

"Haechan why are you acting like..." he didn't even let me finish.

"Look Renjun, I have to leave, I have class in five minutes ."