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Walking into the dark house I already knew the bullshit that was going to follow. Putting on the flashlight on my phone I walked through trying to hurry up to my room " Where you been?"
I sighed stopping in my tracks " i just went out with some friends after work that's all"
I can literally say I didn't see it coming but I knew that it was. A hard slap across my face made me stumble back .
I could smell the alcohol on his breath " You think I'm dumb Stephanie huh? I saw that nigga drop you off. You out here hoeing huh?"
Grabbing my cheek I stood up " Dwayne he was just a friend from work damn" He started walking towards me until he stopped hearing Ayanna's voice " mommy?"
" Go back to your room Ayanna. I'll be there soon okay" I heard her feet departing back up the stairs.
I look towards his figure " You ain't pay the light bill Steph? How fucking stupid can you be ?"
This ain't even my place but I'm paying every bill that comes through it somehow " I remember we discussed this and you said you would handle the light bill this month"
Grabbing his keys and phone he left out the door " well I didn't handle shit. I'm gone."
Grabbing my bag up off the floor I made my way to the bedroom when I heard their little voices talking
" Yanna mommy here?" " yea..." I heard Amir's tired voice ask the question "He hit?" " yea.."
The tears that streamed down my face were hot and heavy from embarrassment. Going into my room I changed out of my clothes and into some sweats and a black hoodie. Moving towards the closet I took out the duffle bag
That was the last time.
Every time I'd say that last time I'd always make an excuse to stay, or he'd threaten me, but I was deadly serious this time
That was the last time I'd let my children witness me stay in a toxic environment and relationship.
Dwayne and I were college sweethearts. I got pregnant during college with the triplets. I thought everything was going to be great. I was going to graduate, marry the love of my life, and have my babies, have a successful career and live happily ever after.
Well I have one more semester left to finish off I had to take a gap year, I have my three beautiful babies Ayanna, Amaya, and Amir who are four about to turn five . Dwayne graduated and decided this is what he wanted. Me and the kids to be our provider. So I put my trust in him.
But time passed and he didn't want me, didn't want to touch me , love me or the idea of anyone else having me.
But a mother of three with no job at the time, no money of her own, no family he was all I had at that time. He was my support system.
