𝐒𝐮𝐠𝐚𝐫 (Sugawara x reader)

‿̩͙‿̩̩̥͙̽‿̩͙ 𝘽𝙚𝙙𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙙‿̩̥̩‿̩̩̥͙̽‿̩͙

-: ✧ :-prompt- "your bedhead is really cute"-: ✧ :-

TRIGGER WARNING 

reader experiences panic attacks, if you find that triggering please don't read

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Ever since finals were announced to be taking place in a week you had been stressing even more than before. you were college prep classes which meant your finals were going to be significantly harder then most other students. not to mention the ungodly amounts of homework that teachers were leaving you as if you didn't have 7 other classes to worry about. now you were panic studying, your eyes jumping from vocab words to definitions and formulas. it must have only been about 30 minutes of studying but it felt like hours of not understanding basic concepts. suddenly you begin to notice small droplets on your neat notes. your right hand touched your cheek. now you could feel the tears run down your face. after that you broke down completely. the pressure that had been building up for weeks had finally released into a panic attack, you felt weak and cold and so so small. you were alone with wet notes and stress. you felt sick, the thought of finals making you want to vomit. you hugged your knees but even that couldn't help your intense trembling and irregular breathing. you felt like you were drowning.

correction, you were drowning and no one could see you.

you shut your eyes tight, the pain you had been feeling became overwhelming. then you felt arms wrap around your body tightly you open your eyes, noticing the soft locks grey from the taller male. you could feel him place his hand on the back of neck softly curling a few strands of hair in with his hair. his soft voice calming you down just enough to catch your breath. "you feeling better?" he asked sweetly, you could only nod. he continued to use pet names and small encouraging words. "thank you," I mumbled into his chest, his arms tightened "anything for you, sugar"

after a bit, you both had changed positions, with Suga sitting on the desk chair, and you on his lap facing him, legs and arms warped around him tightly. slowly you had open up about how you had been feeling, small giggles and breathy laughs escaping from you both, to get your mind off things Suga began to recount today's volleyball practice and how much everyone on the team was being dorks. "I'm not surprised I mean its Noya" you giggled, "you're right, i don't even know how I didn't expect him to try to hang off the basketball net." he sighed. you talked a bit more before Suga grabbed his phone for a second. "oh, wow it's already 8:30, I should start leav-"

"Please stay..." you hugged him tighter, scared to be left alone. he stayed slight for a second, "you said your parents are on a business trip right?"

Suga forced you to brush your teeth, something about hygiene is important, so you went off to find him an extra toothbrush.

then finally you got to lay down on the bed. the soft, yellow-tinted fairy lights being the only thing illuminating us. "I don't think I ever tell you how much I love you, Kou, "You say quietly as I feel his warm body against yours. "I don't need you to sugar, you show me every day," he says his left hand touching my cheek, his thumb rubbing the side of my face. "can I kiss you?" he says, his face full of kindness and love. "of course Koushi." you feel the bed shift under his weight as he presses a loving kiss on your lips, his hand staying on my cheek. he softly pulls away before kissing my forehead, he shifts again getting even closer to me, he rests his head on mine. you feel his breathing begin to slow down, the consistent rise and fall of his chest lulling you to sleep.

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you feel yourself stir awake, the sunlight from your windows causing you discomfort. you finally open your eyes blinking a bit, trying to get rid of drowsiness in your eyes. you and Suga's legs were tangled in the blankets and your arms were warped tightly around his bigger frame. your nose was filled with the scent of dryer sheets and vanilla. you felt at home with him. you continued to admire your boyfriend's beauty, his long eyelashes, and beauty mark makes his face seem almost angelic. his soft grey hair seemed even more fluffy and shiny. he looked peaceful.

"Hey sugar," his voice was raspy and teasing, you snuggled closer into his chest mumbling out a good morning. you bask in the presence of each other for a few minutes, neither of you wanting to get up or even move. "hey, how about makes us something to eat?" you thought about it for a second, although you didn't want him to leave, you could feel your hungry begin to become even more aggressive. "sigh, okay." with that, your personal heater got out of bed and walked toward the kitchen. you lay in bed, watching the room slowly fill up with more and more sun, listening to the noises in the kitchen. after about 15 minutes of studying your own room, you finally got up, placing both feet on the cold wooden floors. you make your way to the kitchen rudding your eyes to try to get rid of any sleepness. you stood by the doorway, watching Suga begin to add pancake batter to a pan, you walk quietly behind him. "your bedhead is really cute" you say into his back, wrapping your arms around his waist. You hear him give you a small chuckle, "yours isn't too bad either" he says playfully.

That's when you knew you wanted to be with him for as long as you lived.

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1086 words

a bit shorter than the other one-shot, just want to say thank you for reading this I really appreciate it:) 

lots of love,

                                                     M.R.