Sshh I Can Hear Your Voice

Chap-13 OLD TIMES

Hyo-jin's pov

We wish for many things in life but of all wishes, the most common wish would be a damn, TIME MACHINE.

I mean seriously why can't we just get a time machine so that we can go back and make every shitty thing we do right again. I dream of going back to that day every single night.

The day I lost everything and the reason for that loss is more heat crushing. Cause, it was damn me. I don't even know why I'm living right now. It just messed me up totally.

Life is so funny one time you feel you have everything and in just splits of seconds, it just takes everything away from us. I miss her very much. No one can fill the void I'm feeling.

She was the only source of comfort and happiness. She showed me what it is like to have a mother.

When I have no one she was there for me.
I wish I have stayed at that damn place like I was told. Not just wander around like an idiot. I should have known the consequences of being born to wealthy parents.

I was the reason she died just because I was naive. My ignorance led to her death.

I WAS THE DAMN REASON SHE DIED.

I clutch my head, the pain is killing me.

I WAS THE REASON.

I looked at my reflection.
"What did I do so wrong in my life?"

I was a mess. My hair disheveled state. My eyes are sore due to lack of sleep. I'm a total mess. I just want to lie in my bed and escape from everything. But the funniest part is, I don't know how to escape from myself.
Gosh, my head is killing me.

I just took my medicine and milkshake.
Not a wise choice but I don't want to eat anything. Heck, Do I even feel something?

I chuckled and decided to wear a hoodie and sunglasses. I don't want to sort out my messy hair nor do I want to conceal my eye bags. I'm tired of living like everything is alright when nothing is right at all.

I'm late for college. hell, do I even care?
My disguise worked no one noticed me and surprisingly I didn't even spot shin-hye.
Gosh, that girl is again missing classes.

I was done with classes. I decided to walk around college. I was just walking and suddenly someone pulled me.

I was about to shout but then suddenly the cologne hit me. It was chanyeol, why does it feel like he is hugging me?

or Is he hugging me?

Then I realized the smell of alcohol.

"what are ..." I was about to speak.

"shhhhhhhh pleassseeeeeee don't speak," he said while holding me more tightly.

I decided to give up. I just laid my head on his shoulders. I didn't realize how much I missed being with him.

"Why do we have to turn out like this? Why can't we just be like the old-time?" he said

"I Never wanted this. Why did it happen to me? why did I lose my mother and my friend? Why???" He said in such a painful voice.

I don't even know how to answer that question. He released me. He was staring at me to find the answers to the question, which he was aware that none could answer not me nor him nor anybody.
I looked away and was about to walk away he caught my hand.

"you are nooottttt going to leaaaaaave meeeeee," he said while stumbling.

I removed his hand from my hand and I know he is going to regret everything. I don't want another blame, for using him while he was drunk. The less I am involved the more I protect myself.