I don't want to live anymore

Part 1

You woke up tied to chains because last night you tried to kill your self again

Mattia and the boys came in your room

You felt weak, helpless

Voices were going thru your head

Mattia: hey baby

The voices

Kill youself
Slut
Go die
Die
No cares

You: SHUT UP
Mattia grabbed your face so you where looking at him

Mattia: hey hey look at me
You: mattia?
Mattia: yeah

The voices in your head calmed down

Mattia: today your gonna learn how to control yourself
You: kill me.please *a tear went down your face*
Mattia wiped the tear

Mattia: get dressed

You looked around for a blade

You saw one on the bed side table

You tried to grab it but the chains just pulled you u back

Mattia took the blade and had it in his hand

Mattia: why are you doing this to yourself
You: I don't deserve to live
Mattia: this is not you this is the voices in your head this is why I teaching you that you deserve to live So get dressed

He unties your chain and you try to run but Mattia grabbed to

You: let me go
Mattia: guys can you leave please

You get dressed and when Mattia wasn't looking you took some drugs

You went downstairs you sat down at the table where they were sitting

Btw you were wearing a hoodie and sweatpants

Mattia made you breakfast
But you didn't even look him in the eyes

Btw mattias a really good cook and he's your Boyfriend

Mattia: baby you need to eat
You: i don't want anything
He sat next to you

He looked you in the eyes
Mattia: please eat
You: I'm not hungry
Mattia: promise you will eat today
You: I promise
He looked shocked

He kissed you

Kai hugged you

Kai was your best friend  so was the others but Kai was your number 1 no offence

Mattia: come on

He took you to a room where he teaches you about how to not want to die

He sat you in a chair with chains

You: let me go I want to die
Mattia: no baby
You: why do you even want to date me I'm a mess
Mattia: because you can change
You: if I listen to you for the whole day am I allowed to do what I want
Mattia: maybe come on I trust you enough to not try and kill you self

He let you go and you sat on the couch

You felt so dizzy you went to go throw up but you fainted

Mattia took you to hospital

You woke up

Mattia: hey baby
You: why am I in the hospital
Mattia: you fainted and I just wanted to check you were okay

The doctor came in

Doctor: hello y/n I'm gonna do a pregnancy scan because I think that you are pregnant

You: how can you tell
Doctor: well I'm just gonna check

He done the scan and you were pregnant only a week