Mew suppasit I surrender

Gulf - Communication 

Looking at mew I was lost in all different types of emotions this morning he's disappeared on me I just wanted to say goodbye was that so much to ask for. Then I cooled down and called him at lunch time and he's phone wouldn't connect I tryed for over an hour I was worried something had happen then got piss that he could be any where and I didn't know .

Football practice I took all my frustration out on my two friends who was only trying to help me. I message mew again and this time he's replyed like nothing had happen. How I was still fuming just how did he's expect me to be ok about all this. I didn't want to explode but I couldn't control this any longer I needed to let this out.

" fine p'mew what do you want to say "

" gulf please stop this I'm sorry I didn't answer but you haven't even asked me where I was I'm not lying to you or hiding anything from .  you just haven't given me the time to explain we both needed to cool down but I don't want you shouting at me while we have people in the car or even on a public side walk "

" fine where were  you p'mew that was so important that your phone was turn off "

" I went to hell I already told you I literally meant it gulf i went to hell to see my father "

Now I started to feel like an ass I know this must of been hard for mew to go and see he's father and I really did just blow up on he's face rather then supported him I was really being an ass . Shit what do I say now

" P'mew I'm sorry I didn't know this you could of told me "

" when did I have time you went to school I don't want to distract you or worry you gulf I'm not like this I will alway protect you "

" but I want to know p'mew. I want to know where you are I don't want to be left guessing if you are ok I'm just worried p'mew we only been back together for a week I'm still human it's still worry me please understand that I been torn today I don't want to come across all clingy or needed but then again I don't want to seem like I don't care or pay enough attention. Then I worry if you are ok or if something happen in your world it's all a bit much p'mew I'm sorry I can't help how I feel "

Looking at the floor I didn't want to look at mew this was a lot for me to handle but we really did need to learn how one another work.

" hay baby don't look down look at me. I won't be mad if you want to know where I am. I won't ever hid anything from you gulf. I'm only your. We need to learn about one another. Communication is the way forward . We both got a hot temper so need time to calm down but we won't ever go to bed on a bad feelings we need to talk about this to know how the other feel it what will make us stronger gulf . I truly meant it when I say I'm so sorry I didn't know you didn't like me  disappearing I will always say goodbye and let you know where I'm am , even if I need to sort work I will inform you always gulf. We need to work together "

Why did mew words away touch my heart so much. I knew he lived longer but I could feel ever word he spoke I knew he meant it. Mew was right we needed to be open and honest with each other that would make us stronger as a couple.

I pulled mew into a hug I just wanted to be in he's arms mew rub my back like a was a baby smoothing me.

" I'm also sorry p'mew I'm so new to this but my heart feel like it's empty when we not together. I can't lose you I don't want this to end and we had so many hurdles to get over already. Loving someone shouldn't be this hard "