Sweet Reverie || Michael Jackson (Completed)

10 - Choice

Samantha is always in her own bubble that no one can burst. Before, she is always isolating herself by staying inside her room all the time. And when she is in her own safe haven, her mind is full of dark thoughts. She really misses her father to the point that there are numerous times that she planned to chase him in the afterlife.

It remained a thought. It never happened. She never hurt herself.

There is a huge difference now. She still misses her father but she is learning the ropes. She is interacting with her family more and a genuine smile is escaping from her lips. When she is alone, she is working with her paintings and sculptures.

She is happier now.

And that is because of Michael.

Samantha is really enjoying the feeling and she is just staring at nothingness, thinking of him. Most of the time, when she is on her bed, she is lying on her stomach and staring at the window. She is thinking about her and Michael's happy memories. 

She is so fascinated by it and she really can tell that she is already in love with him even though Michael still has his reservations especially when it comes to his personal life. 

Samantha can understand it. 

She is not pushing him to share everything about him. It is more important to her that they are together and happy and she believes that one day, he will let her know his darkest secrets.

If Samantha is enjoying the feeling of being in love, Michael is quite feeling the opposite. He is worried and confused. There is a lot of random thoughts inside his head that he doesn't know what to think first.

He is falling in love with her too just like how she is falling in love with him.

Michael is not against with the idea. It's just that, she might not be prepared for what is coming. She might not be ready to know the truth. And when the time comes that she have to know the truth, he is afraid that she will not accept him. 

The true him.

And that is why he is worried to the point that he wants to break things with her. He just wants her to be safe. He wants to protect her. And he can do that if he will end their relationship. Michael is enjoying what they have but it is better if Samantha is not with him.

Samantha is better off without Michael.

At least, that's what he is thinking.

Michael really knew what he is doing. Even if he wants her for himself, he is afraid to what will happen. He is in love and he doesn't know how to digest the situation if ever she will not accept him.

It is too much and it is a lot to ask.

A lot.

Samantha loves Michael. He knows that. But maybe, her love is not enough to make her choose. She loves her family but she loves him too. Michael doesn't want to offer her the choices. He wants her to give an out. They are just starting and it is easier to let go. She doesn't need to choose if he will leave her.

She doesn't have a choice anymore if he will walk away even though Samantha will choose to fight.

Michael doesn't want her to fight for their relationship. 

He wants her to choose him. 

And if she wants to choose him, that means...

Michael let go of his thoughts. The calm ambiance can't give him the peacefulness of the heart. His mind is already a mess but he made his choice.

He already made a decision.

While Samantha is celebrating a happy memory, Michael is in a miserable state. He knows that it will hurt her but it is for her own good too.

Samantha smiled to herself again while she is busy in her bedroom, giving a finishing touch to her sketches. She doesn't have any idea that her wide smiles will come to an end.

He made a choice.

And it will break her heart.

As much as Michael doesn't want to hurt her, it will happen either way. But now, he is choosing the safer path. The better choice for her. So he will do it. His mind is already prepared.

"Michael? Are you okay?"

Samantha can't help but to ask. They are strolling again in the forest park near the rest area where they waited the other day until the rain passes.

The weather is still gloomy and anytime from now, the rain will pour again. The breeze is chilly but the warmth from their intertwined hands is protecting them from the cool breeze but not from the coldness of his heart.

"Yeah. I'm okay." He whispered but he is refusing to meet her eyes. Michael just rested his elbows on the wooden fence, staring at the garden fountain across them.

"Are you sure?" She asked once again and settled beside him. "I have noticed that you've been quiet."

Michael remained quiet, supporting her claims. His mind wandered to something else but he already has a decision.

"I love what we have." Michael muttered and Samantha remained looking at his side profile since he is still staring at the fountain. "But it is not right. What we have is wrong."

"What do you mean?"

Confused, Samantha felt her rumbling heart. She doesn't know why but her heartbeats increased. Even Michael is now looking straight to her eyes, it is not enough to calm her system.

"Let use this chance. To run away from one another. Let's end what we have." 

Michael is far from being calm. His voice is still angelic but his eyes are already glassy. His emotions are playing with him because in all honesty, he doesn't want to be away from her but he needs to do it.

"Samantha. I'm giving you the chance to get away from me. I'm not good for you."

"Michael." Samantha tried to humor herself but she is still nervous of his words. She even settled on the fence opposite to his. "I know you love to joke around but this? This is not a good joke. Stop it. Michael, stop it."

Michael felt his heart flinched. He is hurting already and it hurts even more because she is hurting too. And he doesn't want that.

"Samantha..." He murmured and faced her direction. She is already waiting for him to meet her gazes. "Samantha, I'm sorry." His eyes are showing his sadness but she remained staring at him even though the view is breaking her heart.

"I'm sorry, Samantha. But I am not the one for you."

Her heart breaks when she heard his words. His heart breaks because of what he said too. They shared a sad but confused look before he faced the other way and started to walk away from her.

"Michael! Michael!" She screamed, chasing him. "Michael! Wait!" She added and grabbed his arm to stop him.

He stopped for a second and her eyes are being waterfalls. Michael walked away again, removing her hand on his arm. He didn't even look at her face because he knew, he will just run towards her.

"Michael!" She yelled but Michael keeps on walking away. "Michael!"

No matter how she screams his name, he is already gone. And he will not come back to where she is standing to withdraw his words.