her eyes

"Hell if I know what it means"

Ag

I would say I am doing fine but I am not. I have been struggling ever since the break up , I only got out of bed to go get my hair dyed and to get my new phone. after I talked with Danny the other day and finally accepted the fact that we are just friends I have sort of felt better but I was still not really okay.

I leave for LA tomorrow morning so I was currently packing , I knew Danny was going to be the one to pick me up from the air port so I had to mentally prepare myself for that. 

I folded some shorts and placed them in my suitcase, I put some shirts and a few pairs of jeans along with some of my bras and boxers. I closed up my suitcase and put it next to the door and laid down on my bed. 

I filmed some tiktoks and posted some to my spam account, I haven't been on tiktok much lately since everyone thinks Danny is the reason Anna and I ended thing , which I still don't understand how they came to that conclusion , I didn't even know Danny when Anna and I ended things. 

I went to the videos that I just posted so I can quickly reply to some comments before I fell asleep. 

iamtheslayter: Im fkn seeing u tmw

banannagrace: you fkn seeing me tmw 

someonerando83: ugh yall are disgusting 

iamtheslayter: fuk off thank you v much

banannagrace: i swear some of u guys go crazy abt the most random sht and then ask why i dnt talk abot my personal life. 

I was so sick of the way some of my fans were obsessed about me and who I date , or who I hang out. I honestly wish I could have some sort of privacy. I mean my number has been leaked twice this year and the amount of texts that I got asking about my sex life and my dating life were actually disgusting.

I turned off my phone and set it on my bedside table and cuddled the living shit out of my pillow and started to slowly doze off.

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"What the fuck do you want from me Ag?" Danny screamed at me

"I want you to let me love you again" I said walking to her and tried to hold her but she just pushed me away

"I don't want you to love me again , I want nothing to do with you Ag" she said and walked out the door and slammed it behind her

I fell to the ground and started to cry. How could she do that to me? she promised she wouldn't leave me , or hurt me but she did and now I am alone

I woke up panting and trying to catch my breath. it was just a dream , but why did it fell so real. I looked at the clock and saw it was 5:37 in the morning. I was supposed to get up in twenty minutes anyway so I just got up and went to the bathroom. 

After, I made coffee and my apple cider vinegar and drank those. I wondered if Danny still drinks the apple cider vinegar , she started to drink it when we were dating just so I wouldn't feel alone drinking it alone. 

I filmed a tiktok and wrote on it 'LA this weeknd'. After I posted it I got my suitcase and put it in my car. I was going to drive myself to the airport and my mom was going to pick up my car later with her own key. 

I got to the airport and checked in my suitcase and kept my backpack with me. I went through security pretty smoothly and soon enough I started walking to my gate and waited for my plane to board. 

I was on my phone texting Mia about all the drama that was happening. Something I said last year when I was dating Pyper came to bite me in the ass because I worded it wrong. I apologized and explained multiple times but people are still talking about it.