BRADDISON// IS THIS LOVE?

Part 13- it was a mistake

Recap: addi is crying and is a mess and starts her voice recorder after running away from Bryce after they shared a kiss.

Addiosn pov: "h-hey diary" i manage still crying from the blunder i created. I take a deep breath steadying my voice. "Umm..bryce and i kissed." that's the first thought that was on my mind and i needed to let it out. I continue " we had a.. A party tonight. It was fun...it really was. Bryce told me i looked hot and i know i dont need a guy to tell me i look good but oh just hearing it say to me felt so good. Better than it should've. We drank and danced and...it was amazing until things fucked up" i sniff "as usual...nothing can be normal in my life" i let out a small painful laugh. "Soooo umm bryce put me to bed probably and i woke up few hrs later in search of water and i heard clem and bryce talking. I eavesdroppped and i so wish i hadnt..if only i fucking hadnt but i am glad i did it in some ways. Clem told bryce how she loved him and i couldnt bear listening to his response so i ran off to emm's dance studio. I clashed into bryce and we got really close and we...kissed. It was amazing. I wanted it to never end but sadly it did. So now here i am crying...why? Umm i felt guilty and ....wrong. I thought bryce leaned in to kiss me as well but what if it was just me imaging it? What if he liked clem. I ..am..i am coming between them. I dont wanna be that girl. Umm and as much as it hurts me to say this, i think they deserve a chance and...the kiss not meant to be. I am gonna try talking to Bryce tomorrow and appologise to him for my actions.ughh i fucked up diary...so bad....i dont wnat this to end like this!" i start crying harder "and you know why this hurts so FUCKINGG bad?! Its cause i-" i get interupted by a beep. I get up from the floor and go to the sink where the phone was kept. The recording ended cause the time limit for 1 recording ended. I started another one and i sat down again. "I love him, yeah right i fucking love him!...why? Why cant my first love even end propeorly. I always believed that god woud show me a sign for my perfect one but now it seems like even god doesnt want me to be fucking happy!!!" i shout. "So diary u tell me, what i am supposed to do. I dont wanna fucking go tell rbyce it was a mistake even though I damn well know i should. Clem loves him. They are best friends. I came between them! I wont be able to live with myself if i destroyed their relationship." "but i love him... i love him so much...-" and with that i dozed off to sleep in my bathroom, my dress soaked form my tears.

Bryce pov: i knock on addison's door a few times but she doesn't respond. I wait for some more time outside her door and then i head off to my room avoiding clems room. I am not ready to respond to her..not right now at least. I trie sleeping but i couldnt all i could think about was addison. What was going on in her mind? Why did she kiss me? Why did I kiss her? I mean it was pretty clea but i needed to hear from her...and i needed to figure my feeling out. Amn this is stressful. How do people fall in love so easily, i cant even handle a crush.

Unknown pov: but really..was it just a crush? Or was something else brewing in the heart of bryce hall, something he never imagined could happen to him too?

Next morning*

Addison pov: god knows how i slept through all that. I washed my face, changed into sweets and a hoodie and i layed down in my bed. I called dixie although she was 10 feet awya from my room. I cried my heart ot and told her eything. She was really sorry for me and was surprised i had caught so many feelings for bryce.

Dixie pov: it was 7 in the morning when i received a call from addison. Weird. She told me about how last night was a big fuck up for her.She was crying and i wnated to hug her and tell her it would be okay but she didnt wanna see anyone right now and i understood. She told me she loved bryce. That kinda hit me. Woahh. I knew she liked him but loved? But the heart wants what it wants right? She told me about the kiss and her running away and thinking she was ruining things between clem and bryce. I told her it wanst her fault and she shouldnt be sad about it but she just wont listen to me. I told her i supported her no matter what and just hoped it would all be okay soon.

Addison pov: after talking to dixie i felt better. I took a warm shower, change into more comfy clothes, put my hair in a bun and i walked down to talk to bryce alone after breakfast.

Bryce pov: i head downstairs unshowered and i see addison grabbing soem cereal in the kitchen. Not many people were around since veyrne was hung over form last night. She didnt look up to me and i also kept my eyes to the floor. I didnt wanna make her uncomfortable and start asking her questions just yet. She clearly didnt wanna talk abt it cause she barely said hi to me or anything. She simply ignored me. It kinda hurt after last night. I thought she liked me and she ran off cause sh e was nervous or something. I ate soem cereal too silently until i heard a soft voice. "Bryce- um can i talk to you...alone?" Addison says o me. I nod. Leaving my cereal halfway uneaten. We head to a corner.

Addison pov: i didnt wanna do this. Oh I so didnt wanna but well here we go. "Is this about last night?" he asked before i started speaking. I nodded lightly. "Bryce.. I- i just wanted to say that...last night..the kiss...it was a mistake. I umm I clearly wasn't thinking. I dont know what happened to me. Clem clearly likes you and as a friend and all i think i shouldn't come in between you guys. I am just really sorry, i shouldn't have kissed you like that" i say not meeting his eyes.

Bryce pov: "it was a mistake" she says. It breaks my heart. I thought it menat something. Why would she say that. She says we shouldn't have kissed. She thinks she si coming between clem and i. Fair. if she thinks it was wrong then okay. Yeah...she didnt even BOTHER asking me how i felt about clem. How i felt about her.i was angry. I was sad and hurt but i just repeated her words. " we were a mistake" and i smile a broken smile, trying to assure her I felt the same way when i damn well didn't. No we weren't !!! I think. I liked herr and i still do but still i let her go right in front of my eyes. I didn't bother telling her she was wrong. I was just too sad and broken to do anything.I could see her wiping away her tears as he slowly climbed up the stairs to her room. I think i was crying myself as I walked out towards the kitchen cause i saw Jaden give me a confused look and he followed right behind as I entered my room.

hi! this chapter is so sad. but well. my hands ached while writing the voice recorder part. ugh. but anywyasssss. vote and comments for more. tyyy for 1.4 k reads <3 no new tea. have a wonderful day/night and remember that ur hellaaa pretty and that ur enough !<33 i apologise for any sp in advance. lol. k, bye