Kaisa Yeh Ishq Hai

chapter 23

Sidharth pov.

I am here in my house gym Taking out my frustrations on punching bag....

How can I be so irresponsible and stupid...... I always loose my calm whenever she comes in front of me ....... She gives me a very hard time to control...... These bloody harmones... always make me joke in front of her like I am the one who is forcing myself on her...... I have to hate her then why I couldn't react In front of her...

Aaaaaaaaa Punch very hard on punching bag..

I actually asked her for a fu*** fresh start like seriously what start when she is the one who destroyed everything.. not destroyed but actually killed....... Punch

She killed me...punch......
She killed my emotions...punch.....
She almost killed my reputation.... punch......
She killed my happiness..punch.....
She killed the sidharth who smiled Everytime... punch.....

How I can be this careless...punch punch punch punch punch...............nth time....

How insane I am... punch.....

Why I am not able to forget her... Why she actually roaming in my mind Everytime.....punch..

She is responsible for my this condition.....

Only because of her my reputation was on stake.....she snatched everything from me...... I am left with no emotions because of her.....I became a one night standar because of her..... I became a jerk, a f"***** jerk, monster for every girl.....

I hate you shehnaaz, I hate you so much.....punch

Just because of you my mom and di has to be suffered from that hard time..... U broke my family ..... U snatched everything from me..... I am left with nothing..... punch....

I am nothing without you shehnaaz......I actually confess me and sit on floor crying in agony.... In pain.....

I am feeling pain in my heart.... My heart is paining to no end.... I can feel it.....my heart is bleeding with the short thought of leaving her for life...... I am not happy without her...... after this marriage I am not able to think about her.....

When she goes 5 years ago I always have a feeling that she will come back to me one day....she will returns to me one day...... I am actually forgot how to smile......

Just because of you I forget to smile. He said every word with greeted teeth and remember her ...... Yes you are the reason of my this condition.....

I want you to come back. Yes you come back but with the intention of destroying me again.

i know why are you doing this but i will expose you soon shehnaaz . he is sayingall a loud

Again his eyes became red due to anger and rage. He stands up and punch the bag very hard that his hand start bleeding but he feels no pain.... . he dialed a number and said ' i want to meet you right now' come fast.

he reached backside of his house and there come a person who is wearing a hoodie . that person see his bleeding hand and scolded him for his careless. he is not saying anything but anybody can sense that he is right now a angry hulk... the person wipes his blood . they talk for sometime and he comeback to his room

He comes out from Washroom after taking long bath ....
He is about to sleep when his mom come to his room....

Sidharth pov

I came in room taking a long hot shower. I was so restless. I was about to sleep when I saw my mom standing there taking ointment in her hand

I closed my eyes because again I hurt her. She always gets hurt just because you me. Actually I am nothing but piece of s***. The person is so important always getting hurt because of my doing.

She made me sit and apply ointment. She is doing her work silently indeed I really don't like it but I have no courage to speak a word....

She is about to leave when I held her hand and made her sit on bed. I put my head in lap and she started caressing my hair.....

I am sorry mom. I always hurt you. Please forgive me mom. I can't promise you but I will try to change it.

I know sidharth you don't love her. I know why you are marrying Anu . I know everything sidharth.

I was shocked listening her. Is she knows everything. Is she knows that why we separated 5 years ago and what happened that night. Is she knows. No no no this cannot be true. If she knows the truth then she must be hating her but there is nothing like that from her.

You know what mom. I asked her as don't know what she knows.

You love shehnaaz. Right she said and I look at her with sorrow eyes.

Yes sidharth I know she is the same girl whom you loved 5 years ago and maybe you still love her. I can see your love in your eyes baccha. I know you both have misunderstanding between you guys but sidharth this is the high time...... Think about it.....

U are going marry anu , from day after tomorrow she will become your life and you have to love her beta. I know you have no feeling for her right now but with time feelings are grown up.....

You have to forget her and think about ananya . It's very difficult to forget your first love but it's not impossible. From today you belong to Anu . please leave the past memories and think about future.... U can't cheat Anu sidharth. She is your would be wife and shehnaaz is her sister.....

Stop your feeling now before it creates problem. .... I was watching you from last 5 years how you used to cry for her..... You talking to her picture... U want to hate her but there is no need to do something like that......

Maybe she is not in your destiny.... Your future is Anu please understand it. She is saying all this to me but only 1 line caught my attention that is "she's not in your destiny". I look at her and nodded. She smiles finally. I also try to smile but it didn't get to my eyes..

She. Left and my phone rings.

I saw caller ID and smirk

Pov ends
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