My dearest I hope this letter finds you in good health and wealth, have you eaten anything? You should eat good and healthy so you won't catch any diseases, even if you are not hungry a snack will do for the meantime
I know that for as much as I beg for your forgiveness there's nothing I can do to be forgiven by your twin. Your twin the cause of your predicament in our youth, I wonder how he's doing? Is he doing fine? I hope to find the answers to my questions one day, as much as I desperately try to push it away I know that what I did to you and what I thought of him are horrible in my behalf, hell even more than horrible
I know that I could never be granted his forgiveness, I could never even begin to beg, there's no redemption for what I did to him
I know I'm a disgrace and selfish jerk
Your twin, the one who's name I can not longer remember, the selfishness of my actions fuel my disgrace and anxiety, my fall towards the seventh hell will not be close to redemption for my actions
I want to be the person you and him saw when calling my name
But what kind of person was it?
I want to change to that person the both of you saw not this selfish asshole who greed for your attention in your days of need, this greedy jerk who was annoyed when your attention, your praise, was in your twin, this heartless monster who envy a person who was walking down to death's door
I want to change my dearest
Forever yours truly...
