The 40 days of my life

Day 4

The sun went down....and again went up but still i didn't slept a blink. Just thinking how much time do i have...I'll become obsolete after sometime. What should i do? How will my family will get over this.

'Good morning shreyas!!!' Aishna exclaimed.

'Good morning my love.' I said and hugged her....kissed her on the forehead 'you are the best thing that happened to me...seeing you makes me forget everything in the world.' I said.

'That's really nice of you shreyas.' She said and sat beside me.

Today was different from everyday ...it had the obscurity in it...the dire feeling...the feeling of solitary.

But seeing aishna was the best thing in the gloomy times.

Her eyes were something i loved the most ....her sweet nature,our silly talks, the mischiefs for  awhile there i started living the archaic times which made me feel ashamed.

'What if i die ....what will you do aishna?' I asked her.

'First of all nothing will happen to you and even if something happens i promise you i will love you and take care of OUR parents.' She said and looked at me with love in her eyes.

'I love u aishna.....i just hope i get better.' I said.

My parents were not in the hospital and i didn't had any appointment with any doctors so i sat and cherished every moment with her.

'Shreyas today you are talking quite strange things....are you okay ....should i call the doctor?' She asked.

'I am absolutely fine ....it's just the drugs kicking in and my sentiments speaking thereselves out....don't be worried.' I said.

We talked for like ages an it was almost eve and the nurse came in and said that i have some tests to run after 10 min. My parents were back and aishna took off.

When she was not here the mood felt like dull and like all the sentiments turned tenebrous.

I was in for the tests and doctor was still here with me.

'You look quite good today shreyas anything you did?' He asked.

'Nah nothing doc. Just a normal day an tried to keep away negative thoughts.' While i said this in my mind i was like 'come on who are you fooling ....no negative thoughts....go fuck yourself.'

'Well that's good for you and try to keep it up.' He said.

I was just wanted to see till when will they hide this little secret of theirs.

While i was in the tests my mom and dad were in my room.

'What do you think should we tell him now?' My dad asked.

'I can't think about it...it just doesn't feel right.' She said.

' well some day or the other we have to tell him. We don't know what will hit him tomorrow.' He said.

'But we will break it slowly.' She said.

I came back from the tests aishna returned and we were all in the room chating and crackinf jokes. Living the reminiscence of the past. While they laughed and i saw them i thought what will happen to them tomorrow or worst what would happen to me.....

Being secretive is not bad until it hurts someone one later deep in the heart.