I kind of didn't want to be around him. He really upset me. I started feeling really sick. "Ben, it's happening again." "Are you okay?" "Y-yeah. I should probably just go home." Ben looked upset. "Okay. I love you, (Y/N)." I left before I could say anything.
Maybe I should stop drinking. Maybe that's what's causing me to get sick. It's what's causing the problems between me and Ben.
Drinking had always caused problems. Most of my relationships ended due to it. My parents don't talk to me. I have close to no friends. But, I've just never been able to stop. Nor have I wanted to.
I got angry and threw all the bottles, empty and full, away. Then, I threw the bag out the window. I heard the shattering and fell to the ground, sobbing. My house felt empty. Without all the drinks, there was nothing there.
All I wanted, was for Ben and I to just be civil. I don't want to argue every day. I just want him to love me. And if the only way he will is if I'm sober, then I'll be sober.
As I cried, I wished he was here with me. I didn't mean anything I said. Mostly. Like, he wasn't bad in bed. He wasn't good. But not as terrible as I made it sound.
It was hard to not be able to drink. Usually, I'd just drink until I wasn't sad anymore. But that was all gone. No more. Never again. I just want to be in a nice relationship with Ben.
I really like him. It seems like he loves me. My drinking might have fucked that all up. But, not anymore.
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Death Did Us Part (Ben HargreevesXReader)
Fanfiction(Y/N) was born on October 1st, 1989. Along with 43 other kids born on the same day, she has special abilities. She wasn't special to Sir Reginald Hargreeves. She wasn't one of the seven that was chosen for the famous Umbrella Academy. (Y/N), with th...
