Shizuo's Anger

The memories

During the flash back Shizuo's p.o.v (he's not in the flash back)

I looked at Izaya and then my gaze went lower. He was looking at something but I didn't know what. Then I saw what he was looking at . It was his wrists. He was really quiet . I looked at his wrists and saw that on them there were multiple cuts and scars. Most of them were old looking but others looked New to me. The cuts that lined his wrists looked almost self inflicted. I couldn't stop my self from leaning a little closer to him. I wasn't gonna ask him about them now but I will later. I wonder if he remembers how those got there. I poked him on the side and I didn't get a reaction from him but he was starring off into space. Shizuo: Izaya uh what's wrong hello!?. I didn't yell but my voice was raised . I looked at his face and his eyes looked really glassy he looked like he was having a day dream. Shizuo: Oi flea um well I think I heard that somewhere people who've lost there Memories usually have to remember them somehow so I'm gonna go. I didn't know what was wrong with him but it was really creeping me out. That sounds kinda funny I chuckled as I walked towards the door. I closed the door trying to be as quiet as possible ,then I walked back to my bedroom and went to sleep [dundundun!](just kidding.

What happened after Shizuo left the room

Izaya was in his own mind he was remembering bit and prices of what his past was. The things he had done to other other people . Why he had cuts on his wrists why he had amnesia he was remembering it all. Everything was coming back to him. How Shinra his very best friend and sometimes only friend would clean his cuts on his wrists. Izaya was very depressed in high school but he was always hiding behind that stupid smirk. Not a lot of people like Izaya because he was mean to them, but they didn't know that Izaya's boss could hurt the people that Izaya loved.Not a lot new the real Izaya. Izaya felt like he had to push everyone away because that's how he protected them. Yes he did almost let a girl jump off a building and die. He also made the girl realize that she didn't want to die. At the very last moment of the fall where Celty came in with the horse. The girl changed her mind she realized she didn't want to die. Izaya was bullied in his younger years through grade school. Especially in 2nd through 5th grade those were the worst years for Izaya. Not only did Izaya want to protect those that could be his friends, Izaya had trust issues. Izaya had one friend that he truly trusted. That was Shinra he was an oddball but so was Izaya they were friends . Izaya was remembering every chase that happened with Shizuo. Every thing that he didn't want to remember. Izaya did have some happy moments in his life like meeting Shizuo. Izaya actually liked him more like loved him. No one knew and that's the way he liked it.