✔ army diaries | BTS ARMY

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but you paved the way and kept me sane.

today is the day. i feel so nervous, i feel so hyped, i feel so---

i can't !

omg, what if i freak out and accidentally say weird things to them?

what if i accidentally fart??

what would they do if they smelled my gas???

would jin say "don't gas"????

oh my ghod oh my ghod oh my ghod oh my ghod

okay enough panic and get yourself dressed.

i thought of wearing something nice like a dress but i think it's too much so i settled in to something more casual and comfortable.

a gray hoodie, baby pink leggings, white flats and a plain pink cap.

i let my short hair loose because i think there's nothing else i could do with it lmao.

i made sure everything was in place.

the gifts, the albums, the pass and other stuff that i think are essential, like an inhaler i specifically brought for this moment because we never know if i run out of air if i see them.

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the staffs around us armys asked us to form a straight line. waiting for my turn, i took small glances at the boys who were talking to their fans.

i'm surprised i made it this far without passing out.

when i had arrived here earlier, i became anxious and insecure. i should've worn the dress i prepared last night but no, i chose to wear this outfit that made me look like a total potato.

i'm literally the only girl who's dressed like this. others were wearing flowy dresses and others were wearing skimpy ones, they looked pretty elegant nonetheless.

it's my turn now and i am currently facing Jungkook. with my head hung low i spoke, "H-hi."

i mentally slapped myself.

i'm so awkward.

i heard Jungkook chuckle and that somehow lifted weight off my shoulders.

"You um... Don't be shy." He hesitantly spoke. I can tell that it was because of the language, he ain't really fluent.

"Oh umm... Here." I gave him the gifts I bought him. For me, my gift was stupid but I think it's healthy.

"Carrots?" Jin who was sitting next to him asked, and I can see that he's holding in his laughter.

Welp. I've just officially emmbarassed myself and probably Jungkook too.

"Umm carrots are good for your eyes, eat it because wearing contact lenses often isn't healthy." I awkwardly said.

I suddenly felt his hands touch mine that has been resting on the table in front of me.

I looked up and saw him smiling. He asked for my name and signed my album before returning it back to me. We talked and had a few interactions. Even though we didn't really understand each other from time to time, I honestly found his broken English cute.

I moved over to Jin and he made an amazing dad joke when I faced him. "Do you know what they call a cow that has no legs?"

I shook my head no.

"Ground beef."

It took me awhile to fully understand it and when I did, I found myself laughing so hard to the point where I think I needed the inhaler. My laugh was the same as Jin's and we were laughing both of our heads off.

"Thank you for laughing."

I gave him my gift and he was more than delighted to see it. It was a mirror that had a pink handle.

"Oh wow handsome."

He signed my album and had interactions with one another.

I talked with the other members of Bangtan and they were very nice. I am now facing the leader of the group.

Finally someone who is good in English. I thought.

It was really awkward with the others since they didn't really know how to speak English nonetheless, we had our ways of connection.

"Hi!" The leader happily greated me.

I shyly nodded my head and proceeded to the whole process, but then one question struck my mind.

"Umm Namjoon?"

"Hmmm?"

"Do you guys remember the ARMYs you've talked to?"

I'm so stupid there are too many!

He looked at me and smiled.

"No but I sure will remember you."

"Why?"

"Because you're the first one to ask."

He signed the album and I gave him my gifts. I was about to leave but he stopped me.

"You have a really nice name, Violette."

Now I really need that inhaler!