You ever sit there in the dark and stare at the wall.... And just think... You think so damn hard.... And then you just break you understand.... You understand everything like the reason you've stopped eating the reason you hid your tools the reason your in this situation to begin with....to make it worse no ones there.... Yeah you have friends hell even a girlfriend and they claim to be there but their really not... They can't stop you they can't save you form yourself... So what do you do? What do you do when your holding everything inside when your ready to explode but it won't fix anything.... When ruining your two and a half month streak doesn't mean anything to you yeah it doesn't seem that long only two little months but for someone who's ready to fucking hang them self at any moment it's a whole lot... But you wouldn't... The thought of leaving her hurts way to much.... the thought of leaving all of them hurts but so does disappointing them and that's all I have been good for.... there's only so much a person can take and in the end nothing changes its the same we cry about it then wake up the next day just to do it again... Until one day we end it all....
