The things I never got the chance to say

I still want you

Chapter 2
Even after all this time I still want you and miss you. I think about the fact that I shouldn't have fell for you but I did and I regret not hugging you and holding your hand, or wishing I had you hold me during all the times I fell apart which seems to be happening more and more, I don't know how life could get any worse when I feel as though life isn't worth living because I'm heartbroken, depressed and always anxious. I miss you even when I shouldn't. When you left me, I broke because you were how I dealt with myself and you left me. I lay in bed thinking that if I hadn't fell for you that I'd be happy but even if I hadn't I'm not happy. I moved away from where I belong and I can't help but think that I could leave the place if it wasn't for you. The worst part is you weren't even that good of a boyfriend, you never asked if I was okay and here I am thinking that you were all I needed, well I'm sick of you filling my thoughts but then again I can't help it because I love you and you left me.