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I give Alex a hug as we walk the opposing blocks to our houses. I take out my notebook and take a break on the bench by the park.

- James' Letter and poem:

"I think I'm in love with you, Alex but I don't know how to tell you, so I wrote you a poem..."

"Roses are red, violets are blue I think I might be gay for you, please don't be mad I hope this doesn't change our beautiful friendship.
Roses are red Violets ar blue, I think I'm in love with you, can I have your heart in exchange for mine...

Fuck. That's not good enough.... What if he's straight... and doesn't support??
What if he doesn't like me the way I like him?

How will I find know if I can't even get this goddam letter right...

I wish I could tell him....

But I can't.

Maybe I'll just avoid him... Nahh he's my best friend I can't do that to him.

Maybe I can't trust anyone to tell him. What should I do....

I call my mom.

"Hey mom....?" 

"What's up kiddo?" She answers.

"I... I think I'm gay for my best friend and I -"

"Oh my goodness!! I knew it!! I know sweetie... Mom picks up on the little things ya know"

"Yes ... well .... What should I do? His parents definitely won't support him... But ..."

"Then invite him for dinner..." She begs.

"Yes, Mom!! Great idea ... Maybe then I can tell him...?"

"I hope he doesn't run away.." She giggles. 

"Mo-om!"

"Well, I gotta get back to work, see ya when I get home! Love ya kiddo!"

She hangs up.

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