Hurting Me Softly | JIKOOK (Editing)

Chapter-41

       Jimin's pov.

           Ever since I got text from Taehyung, I became double minded, I had promised myself that I'll stay away from him but now.. I really wanted to go and talk to him..

           I've spent my whole life with, putting him aside so quick is difficult.. not just difficult, it's impossible. I would have to face him one, he my brother, so why not today.

          I just don't want to listen to his apologies, those will be of no use. Because forgiving him ain't that easy for me. So, I'll simply listen to him, if necessary, talk to him and come back quietly. This was all I could do.

         I entered the park, going straight to the swing, where we used to sit and talk for hours and hours, I felt my heart becoming heavy. I saw him sitting on the swing, moving slowly, his head hanging low.

          " Ermm..." I cleared my throat to grab his attention, my heart sank as soon as he looked at with swollen eyes and pale face, he really wasn't doing fine, I could tell.

          " You came..." He smiled half heartedly, as he stopped moving the swing he was sitting on, " I thought you wouldn't come.." his voice low.

         " Yeah..." I said, sighing heavily as I took the on the swing beside him, everything was so calm, like it used to be. When we say here and talking for hours on random shit. I couldn't believe how everything has turned, I was feeling a wall between us and it was so hard for me to break that wall.

         " Look, Jimin... I called you because..." He started but I cut him off as I knew what he was going to say..

         " I know Tae, I already know... But I am not in the mood to listen to your apologies. I already forgave you back then, but I fill the space that has created between us." I explained, hoping he will understand.

          " This is not what I called you for," his voice a little cold as he looked up at the sky, staring at the bright moon.

           " Then.." I asked..

          " Why is it so hard for you make things normal with me? When you clearly giving a chance to Jungkook." He stated, his voice a little harsh this time. I gave him a look as he was already looking at me.

          " Ask yourself..." I coldly said. What as he actually trying to imply? Didn't he know why I am like this? Why am I acting all heartless? He was the reason himself.

        " No.." he half yelled, his features stern, making me curious about the reason of his rude behaviour, " you tell me.. I am asking you. I am not gonna answer my own fucking question. Tell me why is it so hard for you to be normal with me again." He spat, my eyes widened as I never saw this side of him. He looked broken and angry at the same time.

        " I am supposed to be yelling at you, not you. But since you asked me, let me tell you," I said gritting my teeth, his behaviour was seriously getting on my nerves. " Things can't get normal between us is all because of you. You betrayed me, you broke my trust, you made me feel like shit. You did all this shit and here you are.. asking me, why things can't get normal between us.." I grumbled as losing control of myself.

       " Me, me, me... It is all because of me..." He laughed sarcastically, " and Jungkook? Why did you give a chance to him? Because you love him? Isn't it? It is easy for you to forgive him but not me... Who spent whole fucking life with you.." he whispered yelled, glaring at me as I looked at him with the eyes full of anger.