The Shadows that are Free

For once you are not alone

 Staying up until all of my friends were asleep had became a habit quickly, which led to me staying up until the next day. It left me to either sleep for a few hours or to sit in the darkness of my room alone. I sat there staring at the blank screen of my phone, the last message reading 'I'm gonna go to sleep, gn' I sighed dropping my phone down into my bed staring at the open wall in front of me, it felt so weird to be in this silence. It almost consumed me.

 I blinked, and before I knew it the wall was black, in fact it seemed to be moving. I blinked again before something peered over staring dead at me. I looked back at the blank black face. It had no features to it, just a blank slate with the resemblance to a face. "Who are you?" I asked, its mouth didn't open only a sound replied back in my voice with the same thing, Who are you? 

I stared back in surprise the only thing I could think to say was. "The names Devan" It said nothing to me, it just sat at the edge of my bed staring back at me. It seemed like a while until it spoke again. How are you  not cold? I looked down at the blankets covering me "I cannot be cold" I stated hearing its voice one again. But rather instead of my own it sounded of many many voices. You should be very cold. After all its snowing.  I looked back at its face and when I looked away I was in the snowy woods sitting under a tall tree with this thing.

 I looked down afraid of what would happen when I looked it in the face again, Your minds dullen and gotten cold. All life here is gone, reduced to nothing but white. I looked at it again, instead of the black eerie thin figure from before,  instead it was the same pale white as the snow surrounding. It looked me dead back, despite the thing having no eyes, I could still feel them peering into my soul. Its so empty, the surrounding area. Why did it feel so alone? So barren with nothing but me, its so familiar.

The feelings been with me forever, the longing of pleasing everyone to the point I tear myself apart, my heart raw and bleeding my mind blurry and dead. The fury that rested in the pit of my stomach on the verge of overflowing. The presence of the being next to me seemed to become more obvious although it was silent. Its presence felt correct yet off, like it belonged, like I knew it before,  everything in my body is numb, my minds racing. 

Do you feel it?, Its voice shook me to the core, what's happening to me? why cant  I answer it? My body refused to move. The gnawing at your soul feel familiar right? I felt gentle tears roll down my face, as the being moved in front of my face bending over to be face to face with me. A crack splitting down its face to show a distorted smile, Remember it? My heart dropped into my stomach. The first nights of watching your first horror video, people know what its like to hide under your blankets as you feel the fear of things that don't exist watching you.  The same feeling is what is here now, but it's here. The thing that's been staring at me is here looking at me face to face. But why does it sound and feel so familiar? You ripping your self apart.  It's correct Why haven't you tried to save yourself? Why is it right? Your trying to hard for people who don't even care. Why won't it shut up? Your going to die trying to save people. All I could do is close my eyes pricked with tears. It wouldn't stop, can it please stop? Please....

"SHUT UP"

It all stopped, it was silent once again. The only thing I could hear was the steady hum of my fan beating. That's when I opened my eyes again. It was back in my room, the darkness felt lonely again, instead of a warm friend. Everything you've tried for has come up to this, yet you've chosen to roll over and die?  

It was right. God was it right, I hate that it was right. Was it trying to warn me?...

I sighed running my hand through my hair, I could feel my eyes getting heavy.

For once your not alone.

"For once I'm not alone" muttered out before sleep consumed me

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