The Beginning and the End

Scared

Everything changed
One call
Left you deranged

You left me
The truth is, I'm not sure
Together in love,don't you agree?

It was a mirage
So easily shattered
Was it sabotage?

We were synchronized
It came effortlessly
I fell before I realized

Im going out of my mind
I can't breathe
No where to hide

Overwhelmed by feelings
Did it all really happen?
My mind is still reeling

You snuck your way in
So easily my walls collapsed
I thought you were a win

You scared me
How quick i was to fall
To my heart you hold the key

That smile
It disarmed me
How could I be so juvenile?

Rejected me
Left me
Haunted me

It all came crashing down
My heart hurts
I was such a clown

Thought we matched in pace
I trusted you
In return you spat in my face

You forced my feet
Out of your life, I went
I was no exception, you cheat

I dug you out of my heart
Left a nasty wound
We had to be apart

It was better that way right?
You never fought for me
Your name I cursed out of spite

Id survive this
I had to
This was just a miss

I was wrong
Time to move on
But one day my phone rung

My heart stopped
It was you
My stomach dropped

Opened the wound
A piece of you was still there
On my feet I swooned

My heart couldnt withstand
Not having you as i once did
I had to take a stand

Once more my heart ached
For you with each passing day
didnt know what was at stake

Haunting me
In my dreams
My thoughts

No escaping you
Theres still a piece inside
If only i knew

I wouldve stayed away
Id be okay
But I'm not

And now?
You're ready
Im not sure i am

Am I strong?
To be able to overlook
Smile and let myself love?

Or am I weak?
So much so I cant let go
And move on?

You must understand
Im weak because of you
My wound runs deep

Nurture and care
I require to heal
I want to love you but my heart you scared

I need you because i love you
With enough,I'll heal
i need proof that you grew

I have hope
Please dont dissappoint
Not again

I love you darling
Dont let it be in vain
Im begging you

Awaken my love
With true intentions
Or not at all
I dont think i can endure much more