200 miles - Narry

Chapter 7

"This is going to sound crazy," Niall says and suddenly, looks more serious.

"I'm not sure if I can film myself while I'm saying this," he then says, sounding a bit awkward.

"You can film the lake," I assure him.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah if you're too uncomfortable," I gently tell him.

"Thanks babe," he says and switches the cameras, now filming the beautiful view. I patiently wait for him to start talking, my heart pounding harder in my chest. I have no clue what he wants to tell me, I honestly don't know what to expect.

"Okay so I'm just going to say this," I hear him saying, sounding a bit nervous.

"I wanted to tell you that I'm really happy, I'm so happy I met you and we started talking. You eh, you honestly mean so much to me Harry, it's actually crazy. I mean, I never thought I'd find someone as amazing as you are from online and we'd start talking every day and stuff."

I sit in silence, not knowing what to tell him so I just stay quiet, waiting for him to start talking again.

"Shit, that's not even what I wanted to tell," I hear him cursing.

"You see, you're my friend. I mean I think you are but then again, you're not really my friend."

I have no clue what he is talking about and for a brief second I feel a bit upset, but then decide to just hear him out before saying anything.

"I wanted to tell you how I feel but I can't seem to do that. This is so hard Harry," I hear him whining.

"Fuck it I'm just going to say it," he then says.

"I wanted to tell you that pretty much since we started talking more, I haven't been dating anyone. No, that went wrong. I haven't been looking for anyone. And I wanted you to know that I'm not planning on doing that either, dating or looking for anyone I mean, because I kind of..." He goes quiet.

"No you have to see me when I say this," he suddenly decides and then, flips the cameras around and films his face instead.

He looks surprisingly serious and nervous, he is chewing his lower lip, his usual smile gone. My heart begins to beat even harder as I wait for him to continue.

"I like you Harry, I have all these really fucking weird feelings for you and I know it sounds stupid because we haven't even met and stuff but still, I really like you. And I know this is going to sound crazy but I wanted to tell you, no fuck, I wanted to ask you if..." He stops, taking a deep breath and suddenly looking straight into the camera.

"Okay this is going to sound so crazy, but I want to be your boyfriend. Shit, that came out wrong. Hold on." He takes another deep breath.

"Harry. Be my boyfriend? Please?"

I freeze. I really wasn't expecting that and suddenly, I don't know what to say. I'm too emotional, all different kinds of feelings rushing through me as I keep staring at my laptop screen, looking at him.

"I know it sounds crazy Harry I do, but I really want us to be together. I can visit you during the summer and you could come here, and we could try this out. I just, I want to be yours. I don't want to be with anyone else, even if you're there and I'm here I still want to be with you."

"Say something please," he then almost begs when I still don't say anything.

"I-I, I don't k-know what to say, I just," I manage to blurt out before I feel something wet on my cheek and I realise I'm crying.