please, dont leave//draco malfoy

you let me down

"elodieee"

I shifted in my sleep and woke up to Hermione leaning over me

"finally you're up! how you feeling?"
she asked with a smile

"tired, what time is it?"
i asked sleepily

"8:15, potions in 20 minutes"
she reminded me and then walked out of the room to let me get ready

I was so exhausted from the 2 hours of sleep I got. Even when I had managed to fall asleep I still had nightmares.

Thoughts of last night still lingered in my head.. draco still lingered in my head.

I got out of bed and walked to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth and hair. I then changed into my robes and grabbed my leather bag and delicately placed my books inside. I swung it over my shoulder and headed for the common room.

I said good morning to a few people and then walked out of the common room with hermione, we made our way to our potions class- me, still half asleep.

*in potions*

I walked into potions and said goodbye to hermione as she walked to her table to see harry and ron, I wandered over to blaise and draco which is the table we always sit at.

"Hey ell, how you feeling?"
Blaise asked me

"Tired. I got 2 hours of sleep"
I replied through a yawn

"If you're done yawning, maybe we could get some work done."
Draco blurted out bluntly

This took me by surprise. He had been so sweet, so caring last night. Was it all a joke to him? He saw me at my lowest and he continues to hate me. I just looked down and spoke in a quiet, sad voice.

"S-sorry"

Today was one of those days where everything anyone said to me, affected me strongly. The nightmares were heavy and I hardly slept, I was emotionally drained from all the crying and my head hurt from yesterdays events. I just wanted to curl up and cry.

I blinked back tears that threatened to spill and caught dracos eyes as his icy, stern look turned into a sympathetic one as he saw my expression. I just turned away quickly and focused on my work.

When the class ended, I had hardly uttered a word the whole time. Blaise gave me a worried look as I quickly shoved my book into my bag with little delicacy (unlike this morning) and quickly half jogged out of the room. I didnt even bother waiting for hermione.

Why did it hurt me so badly that he went back to hating me? I mean, it affected me before but never like this.

"Ell?"
I heard blaise call out

I just sniffled as I slid down a wall and began to let the tears begin to take over my face. Blaise found me and just held me into him as he told me everything would be okay. I slowly calmed my crying and breathing to a steady pace.

"Was it how draco snapped at you? I saw it bothered you more than usual"
He questioned but gave a sorry look

"I- I'm just having a bad d-day. Not m-much sleep.. n-nightmares."
I replied through stuttered breaths

"It will be okay, how about we skip and I'll come sit with you until you fall asleep?"
He offered

I just nodded and we walked to a quiet corridor that was a bit out of the way of everyone else. We sat against the wall.. well I laid in his lap and he stroked my hair as I slowly drifted off.

Draco:

I'm so stupid. why did I have to snap at her? I shouldve just kept my mouth shut. I know I shouldnt hurt her but she cant get close to me. Last night was too close. If she starts to feel for me how I've always felt for her then she could be in danger. Her parents were killed by the man that my parents praise with their lives. I cant let her in. Father would be disappointed if I focused on anything but my studies. I cant keep letting him down..

'All you do is let me down draco. You dont act like a malfoy! Running around after a girl.. yes that's right crabbes dad mentioned how you protected this girl against crabbe. What do you think you're doing? Focus. Let me down again and you'll be no son of mine!"

I cant let him down. I'm already a disappointment. I need to focus.

Hiii!
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