Through My Eyes Song (Prod. Riddick X Beats)

Through My Eyes song Part 2 (Prod. Riddick X Beats)

Now it is me speaking, not you, here is my responses/I did think of you all the time and my only escape was through music, gaming and comics/but that was ever never enough shit/yes, I do want to be there/saying I don't would be a lie, and don't think for one second that I don't care/and all I want is for you to be happy/doesn't mean I was never not missing you badly/I thought it was me that you were disappointed in/that I was the one who was failing you/and without you, it's hard to be enjoying it/today I will just tell the truth/the song I wrote you was saved through Christ/I sent it to you, only reason I never remastered it was cause the mixing was never right/nothing I ever write in songs I find to be good enough/to be your song, it has to be perfect cause I love you so much/that's why I wrote you poems instead/cause in songs I don't feel there could ever be enough said/I never meant to hurt you and make this feel painful/I am truly sorry and the fact that I hurt you makes me feel shameful/I was such a fucking coward, didn't know how to face you/

I already let you down before, so I didn't want you to be even more disappointed in me and look at me different/I just didn't know what to fucking do, now you probably won't give me forgiveness/it don't gotta be like this/and your life is worth it/I miss you every damn day/I do have more that I need to say/I never wanted to disappear like that/it wasn't my choice, you were all that I had/we were family and I just miss our friendship/I hope that we can somehow rekindle it/ reason I was a coward is you pointed out my flaws a lot and made me feel like I'd never get it right/and because I lost touch I figured you were better off with me not in sight/on the gram, you smiled and made it seem you were happier without me/I thought you were better off so it wasn't about me/I can see now that I was wrong/I never meant to leave you all alone/feels like all I ever do is let you down/wish I could find a way to make you proud/

Well, I guess let me know if there is anyway I can make it up for what I did to you/but to say I don't want to be there just isn't true/I will tell you everything if you just give me the chance and open your texts/I'm sorry I didn't find the courage to tell you sooner, but until you wanna know, I'll be waiting till then I guess/like Em said to Dre, I don't think you realize how much you mean to me, not the slightest clue/it's time for me to enlighten you/on why I couldn't be there, and that's something I will do/some of these things you're wrong about but I do owe you an explanation/the reason it is hard to keep in touch is cause my phone was taken/but if you still don't believe that I want to be there, then I don't know/ but I do care about you a lot and love you to death with my heart and soul/I felt the same way as you/I just thought I'd hurt you more if I told you the truth/but I guess it hurt you more by not telling you and I didn't think this through/

You were the reason I ever picked up a pen again/and I'm happy I stopped you from ending it/I never wanted to destroy you, I wanted you to be strong/I hope you understand by the end of this song/I wanted you to know how to stand on your own/but I never meant to make you feel alone/but I can't always be there, but I need you to understand/that though I can't, you have my undivided attention when I can/I wanna still be there for you if you need me/and I never meant things to turn out this way, it's hard on me too, it could never be easy/you say you don't know me no more, but I'm still the same guy I was on the day we met/April 17,2015 and talking to you was one of the best choices I've ever made, that I won't regret/but idk if you're happy we met/but don't end it, I care about you, was the first thing to you that I said/believe me, I meant it and that's when we became friends/but we closer than friends, we supposed to be fam/I am not giving up on this yet and that's where I stand/

I don't have a lot more to say, but I hope you still care and that you don't hate me/cause if you do it almost makes me wanna take the whole bottle of adderall for my ADHD/not that I will, but it is driving me crazy/if I ever have the chance, I'll always be honest and promise to try my hardest to never hurt you again/because losing you is like losing one of my best friends/if I ever have the chance, this time I will always listen/will never turn my back on you again, and I'll do things different/I promise it will be different and that things will change/ but remember still don't gotta phone, but if I do get one again, I'll never make you feel this pain/I will never put you through this suffering/not again, I never wanted you to suffer if you wondering/but one more thing is I do want you back in my life/but that's up to you, otherwise I hope your doing alright/cause I can't force you to be in my life either/but if you want to be I'll be here waiting if you ever want to reach out/