Dear Diary,
As of September 30, 2020. I'm currently in bed doing nothing. My actual plan was to sleep because I was sleepy while playing Phoenix but then I wasnt sleepy at all when I turned off the game.
I'm currently thinking of my babe. Today was rough because I told him that if I would choose between him or studies, I will choos studies. He went quiet for about an hour. God knows how it hurts. We already talked about the topic when we chatted but it so happened that when we talk about it via call he just wont talk. I'm really sad about it. I thought of, why did I even told him that. I really hope that he wont feel the same again when we talk about it in person.
I bought milktea today by the way. I spent the last money i had in my wallet since I've been craving for it for a long time. Now I'm craving for freaking chicken wings. Korean style if you're asking me. Damn I wish they would cook chicken wings.
I dont really know what to talk about today. I just type what I come up in my mind.
I'm currently also facing a problem that I wish to never encounter in my whole life but yeah I need to face this sht! God bless me with this problem so I need to find a solution fast. Oh and by the way, I talked to one of my grandmother who is still working on a call center job if she can like put me in. I really need money since school is really really expensive damn! Hoping that she can pull some strings for me.
I talked to my bestfriend to about having a boyfriend and he was like, "Okay, do what makes you happy." "If you're happy then I'm happy too." I dont even know what to feel after reading those words he was just like nahhh you can't and sht. What a loving bestfriend he is lmao. I'll share you guys some info about him when I get some mood to do so lmao. I dont know if you would find it funny but for us it is funny hahaha.
Its today is the last day of the maintenance thingy for the other internet connection so tomorrow also is the performance for our PE class and I havent done anything yet. I'm just in bed doing nothing hahaha. Told myself to practice the whole day but this is what I do. In bed everyday hahaha. Its a tiring life you know so I just stay in bed everyday.
So I think I did everything or I said everything I want to say to you diary. Thank you so much for being a companion. Hope to do more in the near future. Sorry if I dont update everyday but I will update every 2 days is that okay? So I can input more happenings in my life hahaha. 1 day is boring so I need about 2 days to say something to you. Soo byee diary! See you again!
~ Elle
