a rant of sorts

fuck this man

a fuckin promise, honestly fuck promises, they never work out, like how you have a long ass improve conversation and then the people you had it with hang out without you and break that promise immediately. it hurts, it really fuckin hurts to know that people you trust and care for, people you respect don't respect or care english about you to follow through with the shit they promise. i lost a friend today, wich sucks but the thing that upsets me the most is that the other person, i'm still their friends and they're acting like saying they didn't mean to upset me is just going to make everything better, i trusted this person with a lot of shit and it just seems like they don't care. and it hurts, it feels like all of it was pointless, like they don't care, and maybe they don't, maybe it's all just some joke but at the moment i can't seem to care. so here i am at 2 in the morning rethinking my choice to live, and hey, maybe i'm being over dramatic but i've had so many people lie to me at this point that i can't trust anyone, this is the worst. i just want to be friends, that was all, i sat down and listened and talked with these two people for probably close to an hour, we agreed to put the bullshit and lies behind us and be friends, and then i get a call at 10pm, one of them is yelling and not listening so i ask the other to talk to them for me, to try and get them to listen, they were hanging out without me, the one who wouldn't
listen took the phone and yelled some more, and they're acting like it isn't childish, like this situation couldn't have been avoided, it could have, but i answered my now ex friends call, and now i'm fuckin sad. honestly what's the point of having friends anymore.