Philosophy essays

definition of loneliness

Loneliness is a strange thing, in movies people are sad and depressed when lonely and it makes they live hell but, in reality, you don't feel sad most of the time, you just get along with life as you did when you weren't lonely. Many people would see me and not think I would be lonely, I also like to believe that becuase the loneliness takes over when I look at my life and realize while everyone else my age is parting, falling in love, getting drunk and living life to the full potential life cab be lived too, I spend my time at home reading, writing, going on walks.drawing. In those moments its when I realize how lonely my actually is life, and sometimes when I think about it it feels like someone puts a knife in the heart because I know once upon a time I was never lonely, often was never home but now I am the complete opposite, leaving the house if it isn't for school is rare now, going out and having fun well I haven't done that in over a year, which to a normal person with a social life probably sounds insane and to me it once did, see the first months of being lonely were dark and horrible then it became my reality and normality, see I still have a tiny bit of hope that one day, I will find friendship or a love that will take the loneliness out of my life. but its a very little because I quite like being alone now as strange as it sounds.

I never imagined being alone when I was younger but now I can't imagine having friends2 now, see you probably imagine I don't speak to anyone but in fact, I do see at school I hang about with diferente people and know many but when school is over for the day or the weekend rolls around I never got a call, a text back or even an invite to hang out see that's loneliness it only sets in when your alone with your own thoughts and look at the world around you.

See it's like falling into a hole, you never plan for it so you have no idea how to get out or where to even start so after a while you give up hope so you decided to make the best out of it, making yourself comfortable in that situation you find yourself in. See if anyone every tries to get me out this hole Iit will be hard for me kinda like Stockholm syndrome. That's what people who aren't lonely don't understand, as crazy as it sounds to be alone to you to people who are lonely it seems crazy to have friends, going out and socializing seem weird when you walk this world alone.

So know I have explained loneliness to you can ,I have to give you a definition to you and well I don't really have one, its weirdest feeling because after time it's just the normal thing so if you want a definition I would say it would "the feeling of being your only and best friend "