Reality (zarry)

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A/n i'mso sorry! i haven't updated for a while, school'sshit i want to drop out. btw int he beginning harry has glasses.

Harry was doing his work online since carona kept him from going to school. After an hourharry finished his schoolwork and read a book, he read until he smelled food, he stood up and ran to his door. He was very hungry since he didn't eat anything that day, he looked from the staircase to see luke, Ashton, rick, dave and john all at the dining table. Rick,dave and john are harry's adopted brothers.

"jesus harry's shit" luke cackled.

everyone else burst into laughter and agreed with him. "why does he even that big of glasses? such a fucking nerd" dave laughed and rick snorted. "what does he even wear? their so feminine and girly" john said in disgust.

"will you all shut up? harry's upstairs and that's very rude" ashton snapped at all of them.

harry felt the tears running down his cheeks and decided he wasn't hungry that night. he flopped on his bed as he played 'Sofia' by Clairo. lhe removed his glasses and looked at his clothes in the mirror, he looked at his hips and cried even more, helooked so feminine. "they don't like it, maybe they'll love meif i change into these" harry muttered to himself as he picked out black jeans and an orange shirt. he shook his head as he removed his makeup and put a facemask on, his pitbull ran in and hopped on his bed, he whined at put his head down, knowing harry was sad.

"im ok bella" harry cooed at the dog that nizzled it's head onto harry's chest. he petted the dog and looked on instagram.

he saw a picture of Perrie and Zayn, he took a picture as the kissed.

"ily @perrieedwards'

harry's eyes welledwith tears again. why did he have to do this? didn't he love harry? is it because he looks like a nerd?

he then rinsed the facemask off and put some contacts in, his eyes popped out more, nobody actually noticed what his eye color was, harry just thought he had ugly eyes. He wished he eyes like other girls, brown, blue or grey.
He could never be a girl though, zayn wouldn't want him. he just wants them tobe friends, thats all they'll ever be...right?

he went to bed a dreamed that his family would give him the love they give to his other siblings.