Fuck it

Wishful tears prt. 1

Oh this subject is a lot to unpack.
Anyways before we begin I would like to say
I'm sorry and you're welcome.

Anyways, when I was younger, like elementary(early primary years or Europeans)  school years I was suicidal.

But I was also scared of dying.
So when I was young I wished for the world to end when I'm 16 if I don't kill myself at 13 and for me not dying when between those ages. From the description and last chapter you know what age I am.

I would like to say that I am so fucking sorry for this, I didn't know it would actually come true.

But since it was all that I had known I couldn't have even imagined myself getting more mentally healthy.
And I didn't even think about t for years until a couple months ago, and I remembered and I've been trying to convince myself that it's all just a coincidence.

So I recently revered all that I did, and I cried while wishing for it.

Anyways I tried it a few nights ago and I wished for trump to die in October.

And on October 2nd, he got corona, and on the same day is rushed to the hospital.
So I've heard, and I don't know if he's faking or not but since he's in the hospital I'm guessing it's not.

But the thing is is that I don't know of it's just a coincidence because he's stupid or if I helped cause it, along with many witches and pagans.

Anyways to see if it is or not I will be testing it in other people, but I will be doing it similar to how light from death note did it, except not wanting to be seen as a god or anything.

I don't really want people to know about this but the truth needs to come out somehow.
And also this will probably help with my mental health since well it's always been shit and I also need something to document if it's real or not, so for the next few nights I will be crying trying to get the Vice President ya know....