trigger warning this chapter will include self harm.
➶ 𝙽𝚘𝚎𝚗'𝚜 𝙿𝚘𝚟 ➴
my eyes opened as i looked up at chase who was still asleep. i looked over to the bathroom door and back to chase. i pulled the covers off me as i didn't want to leave chase. i sat up as i pulled the covers back over chase. i slowly walked to his closet and grabbed clothes. i walked into the bathroom and stopped at the door looking back at chase.
i wanted to just wrap my arms back around him but i needed to stop doing that. he wants me to get better not worse. i walked in shutting the door as i put chases clothes on the floor. i turned around so i wasn't facing the mirror as i undressed myself. i turned the shower on and got in. i looked at my wrists as the bruises were still there slightly. i put my wrists down as i stood under the water. i didn't know what to feel at this point. i looked up seeing my razor. i knew i shouldn't but i grabbed it. i looked at the bruises on my wrists as i looked at the razor. i wanted everything to go back to normal. but it can't and won't.
i started cutting the skin on my wrist as the blood ran down my arms. i looked at my other wrist and did it on my other wrist trying to feel something at least. the blood dripped down my arm into the bathtub below me.
"noen"
chase knocked on the door.
"yes"
i said.
"you ok"
he said.
"yes"
i said.
"ok i'm just checking sweetheart"
he said as i looked down at my wrists. the blood flowing out of them. i turned the shower off putting my razor back as i got out as kept my head down grabbing bandages from the cupboard. i kept my head down not looking in the mirror and only at my wrists. i wrapped the bandages around them and turned back round looking up. i grabbed chase clothes and got dressed
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i turned to the door and walked out the bathroom to see chase sitting on his bed. i walked over to him as i got on his bed and hugged him.
