Let's Stop!

Chapter 5: I...

After that day Chenle and Jisung steadily grew closer. The younger spends most nights in the older's house that they're basically living together. They hug, snuggle and cuddle with each other. They sleep in one room but they haven't done anything intimate yet, except kiss. A peck is still a kiss right?

Jisung is really careful not to cross Chenle's current boundaries still scared that he might change the older's mind and that he'll end up leaving him.

"Huh?"
Jisung woke up in the middle of the night and found that Chenle was not beside him.

"Chenle where have you been? You did not come back to the house last night."

"Oh... I couldn't sleep so I went to a PC bang to play games."
They're now inside the practice room and the younger finally had the courage to ask the older.

Something's off but Jisung shoved off the uneasy feeling and went back to practice the dance break that he, Haechan and Jeno will have to perform separately. He moved his body dancing to the refreshing choreography but his eyes followed the older that disappeared out the door.

When they were given a short break he desperately wanted a drink.
There were snacks and beverages on a table but he wanted something fizzy so he turned towards the other hallway.
Jisung was about to go where the vending machine stood, when he heard a crashing noise from the store room a little further away.

Curious, he went to see what was making such a ruckus.

"Chenle... How long are we gonna keep meeting like this. Aren't you going to finally date me?" The question was interrupted as the woman gasped.

"You even went to me last night..." The lady wasn't able to speak anymore as she was bent down by the older.
"Probably sooner than you think babe." Chenle grunted.
Sinful noises errupted from their lips as they writhed against each other in lust.

Jisung walked backwards almost stumbling before he fled the horrifying scene he just witnessed.

Unable to grasp the situation the younger kept spacing out until the end of their practice.

"Jisung let's go home now."
Chenle clung to his arm cheerfully before he was dragged towards the service that was waiting for them.

Inside the car the older peeked at the silent Jisung beside him. He also noticed earlier that the younger was avoiding his touches.

"I think I'm just gonna stay with the other members Chenle. I'll go back now."
The older spun around to face the younger that's still standing by the door of his apartment.

"Hey! What's wrong with you? You've been like that ever since we were in the car." The older asked as he's starting to get annoyed at Jisung's behavior.

"I saw and heard it all Chenle. I wasn't asking you to be honest with her about us because I know that we are not together but you could at least have the decency to not say those words. If you say those... How... How else can I go on?" Jisung's voice echoed in the small hall. He was trembling with a pained expression.

The older froze, eyes widened in both shock and panick.

"I said I am willing to wait for you... not to get always hurt by you."
The younger looked down in anguish.

"I'm going home Chenle. I'll just burden you if I'm here. It's clear to me right now, that my feelings..."
The taller choked out trying so hard not to breakdown.

My heart...all of it... Despite my sincerity... are just unbearable for you." He finished his sentence bitterly.

Closing his eyes, he breathed out.
"Let's stop this. Who are we kidding Chenle. You will always choose anything and anyone else but me... It's okay. It's alright to feel that way, just don't give me any false hopes anymore."

"Hah... I was happy for a short while." Jisung covered his eyes with his hand, tears sliding down his cheeks.

"See you tomorrow in practice Chenle. Don't worry about me anymore hm? I can manage just being your friend."

"Bye..."

"Wait Jisung!" The smaller held on to the taller's wrist but Jisung snatched it away leaving Chenle in the foyer alone.

The smaller felt his knees weaken as he slumped on the floor, tears welling up,
"What have I done again?"