The One That Got Away (on going)

Memories Bring Back Memories Bring Back Pain

Flashback

"Ahm Caroline, I was thinking, you know, since we passed the exam, why don't we celebrate"

"I know that tone Jean, what celebration are you referring to huh?" mabilis kong sagot

Jean is a very good friend of mine. She's been there for me thru my good and hard times. She's my other half, I love her and I'll do everything to protect her as much as she protect me. We're sisters, and nothing can tear us apart. I was still young when my parents went in abroad, since then hindi kona alam kung ano ang pakiramdam ng may pamilya, ng may kasalo sa problema. Not until she came. She treat me as her own family, she made me feel again what's the feeling of having someone to hold on, she's there for me whenever I feel the world is turning it's back to me. I will do everything to keep her, even it cost thousands

"We can attend night party Caroline, we're already grown up. it's nice there too, I assure you, plus we won't do anything stupid" she said with her usual distressing  tone

"Jean you know I don't attend such event, right?"

"Yes but, hmm as expected, you won't agree, I still don't know why did I bother to ask you wherein the first place I already know your answer" she sighed in disappointment

"Jean, arg fine! You left me with no choice"

~end of flashback~

No, no I should not be thinking of that thing again. That was years ago already, but the wound it cost me is still fresh. Funny how our most trusted person turn their back on us.

I was occupied with my thoughts to the point that I did not notice I'm crying already. I am now laying at the seaside of shore. I don't exactly know the reason why I'm here, it's just my feet brought me here.

Ganun pala 'yon no, once we are betrayed by our most trusted person, the pain that it brings is unbearable. That no matter how long it has been, it still hurt us so bad.

I thought I had cope with it already, but I am wrong. I was carried with the assumption that after 3 years I'll be able to forget it.

Ang sama niya, ang sama sama niya. Pinaniwala niya 'ko na kapatid ang turing niya sakin. Hindi naman n'ya ko kailangan kaibiganin kung papaikutin lang din pala niya ko. Sana inaway nalang n'ya ko, baka pag ganon ang ginawa niya hindi ako masasaktan ng ganito, hindi ako mapipilitan ilayo ang sarili ko sa mga tao.

Because of her I am afraid. It is terrible for me whenever they asked me for friendship, if not of her I won't build a wall that separates me from other people.

I am now an outcast all because of her! If she did not betrayed me I won't be afraid of knowing new faces and exploring things outside my horizon.

Since then I did not entertain companion. I am always this rude and mean, for the reason that I want them to stop befriending me.

"A penny for a thought?"

I was off guard when someone came, oh how cool of me. He just saw me in my state of weakness

"What are you doing here?" Mabilis kong sagot sabay punas sa'king mga luha

"I've been observing you Caroline, and I accidentally eavesdrop with your conversation with a peeps a while ago"

"Ano?! How dare you listen on a conversation that does not concern you. Kalalake mopa namang tao pero ang chismoso mo!" I scream out of my lungs pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ay ang may nakikinig sa usupan ng may usapan.

"No it's not like that, I was just about to borrow a book when I heard someone arguing, I did not mean to eavesdrop"

"Crap the excuses, moron" I blurted sabay lalad palayo sakanya