Fucking Gallagers

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i woke up on the couch, i must have just fallen asleep here, everyone was at the table having breakfast. i got up and went into the kitchen and made myself a cup of coffee.
"hey you're up." Fi smiled "you work today?" she asked
"uh no, i'm off" i told her
"would you mind watching liam, i have to run to city hall?" she asked while grabbing lunches.
"no not a problem." i say with a smile taking a sip of my coffee. she handed me some buttered toast which i slowly ate, and eventually the house cleared out and it was just me and liam sitting in the living room watching his cartoons.
ring ring
i picked up my phone and answered
"ya?"
"y/n l/n?"
"she can't come to the phone right now may i take a message?" i told whoever it was
"this is chicago hospital, her father was admitted this afternoon after he got into an accident while driving under the influence of multiple narcotics as well as alcohol, his doctor has requested she comes in to talks to him, it's very important. as soon as she can if possible." they say threw the phone
"what for?" i asked
"we're not allowed to disclose information over the phone, especially not to non relatives." she says
"okay yeah i'll tell her." i say then hang up the phone.
"cunt"

after a couple hours ian and lip came home from whatever they're doing. i told them i had to go out and grabbed my jacket going. when i got to the hospital i told the desk nurse the name of the doctor, she told me a room number and floor to go to and so i went trying to find it. when i finally found the door and knocked a tall old man let me in.
"y/n, my name is dr. (name), i was your fathers doctor-"
"what do you mean was?" i asked, he sighed and thought about his sentence before continuing.
"you father was in an accident, a bad one, i'm sorry but he didn't make it, our staff tried everything they could to save him but the damage and the drugs he'd been taking for years had deteriorated his chance of fighting." he told me, without saying anything i stood and left, i didn't know what to think, my dad had died, i now had no family left, i'm completely alone.

i walked back to the gallagher household but didn't go in, i could hear them in there, they were a true family, i mean they never had their parents but they had each other, they were a family. i stepped in and went back up to my room, ian wasn't far behind me, he hugged me somehow knowing i wasn't okay without me telling him.
"my dads dead." i tell him, no emotion in my voice
"he was a deadbeat."
"you don't understand ian, both my parents are dead, it gonna take the state a week tops to realize and come take me away." i say looking him in the eye. he was silent, i didn't blame him for not knowing what to say. before i knew what was happening ian slammed his lips against mine. i don't know why but i kissed back, he laid us down and we made out gently but with passion, i didn't know he felt anything for me, or anything for girls in general, what if he doesn't...
"ian wait." i stop him
"what am i doing something wrong?" he asked, i could tell he was nervous, me being a girl really is a problem i knew it
"ian you're gay." i state looking him in the eye, he sighed and sat back, leaning against the wall.
"i know, i've been gay for a while, but it's weird with you, i don't know, you make me happy ya know? and like, i can't help but smile when i see yours because it's just so perfect, at first i didn't know how to act around you at all, and the only reason i could pretend was by just repeating in my head that i am gay. but that stopped helping because you just kept getting better and better the more i got to know you." Ian spelt his guts to me, at first he stared at the wall in front of him, but eventually he turned his head to look me in the eye too
"I don't know what to say... i've never had a gay guy catch feelings for me before." i say making him chuckle
"yeah well i've never had a crush on a girl before." he responded making me laugh a little in return.
"i guess, i mean if you're cool with it, maybe we could figure this out together?" Ian suggested after a few seconds of silence.
"yeah maybe." i say smiling, Ian embraces me in a hug which i soon turned into a cuddle sesh laying us down, it wasn't long before Ian fell asleep with his arms wrapped around me laying on my chest. the sound of his shallow breathes calmed me a bit until Lip appeared in the doorway.
"so you making your way threw all the gallagher boys? cause uh, carl and liam might get you some time." he says, i could hear the anger and jealousy in his voice even though he didn't raise it.
"fuck off Lip." i say not really in the mood for his sarcastic asshole attitude
"no no no, i want to know, how come you fuck me, but then go and start dating the gay kid, what are you his beard?" he says stepping in a little more.
"i was high as a fucking kite that night, fuck i barely even remember it, you were there, and i don't even know if me and Ian are dating, we're figuring shit out." i tell him, even though he was pretending to be calm i didn't give him the luxury
"you're such a fucking whore, you know what, not only would i treat you better then that asshole, i wouldn't break up with you in two months because i like dick!" this time he raised his voice he woke up Ian but also got the attention of most of the house, who came to watch the argument
"the only one being a fucking asshole is you Lip! fuck! and keep your fucking nose out of my business, you're not my father or my boyfriend so hop off my dick!" i yelled back, ian watched me yell at his brother, and now that he was awake and sitting up i was standing so me and Lip could get in each others faces.
"Thank fucking god for that! everyone you fucking touch goes insane, no wonder your dad never fucking loved yo-" before Lip could finish his sentence i had decked him square in the jaw, as hard as i could with the shaking and trying to hold in my tears, he looked at me after coming back up before storming out slamming the front door, everyone kind of stared at me but after a few second i took to breath i start frantically packing my shit back up.
"y/n what are you doing." fiona asked trying to stop me or at least slow me down.
"i'm getting the fuck out of here, i just ruin shit, plus i don't want to be near that fucking prick." i say, no longer able to hold my tears
"come on kids let's let them talk." i heard V behind us say while i shoved a bunch of clothes in my bag
"you can't leave, the kids love you, and it's not safe for you there with your dad." she says trying to reason with me
"ya well he's dead so he won't be much of a threat anymore" i say making eye contact for a second before shoving more shit in my bag
"oh y/n i-i'm sorry." she says trying to console me.
"save it he was barely ever a father" i say, at this point fiona was almost begging me to stay at this point, she had one hand on mine holding the bag with me, the other on my shoulder while she gave me a pleading look.
"let me talk to Lip, don't let that jerk get the better of ya." she says, i sighed and let her take the bag, which she gave to ian and pull me into a hug
"you know you're family right? and we look out for family." she tells me, eventually i wrapped my arms around her too, enjoying the hug, wondering when the last time anyone considered me family.