Lost in Harry Potter (ENGLISH VERSION)

Awkward situations

I look around the door of the kitchen. No Sirius. Good.

Quickly I walk in, make some food, eat it as fast as possible and go to the living room.

To my surprise, Remus is sitting in the couch.

He looks just as surprised to see me, "Robin? I didn't expect to see you here."

"Me neither."

He pats the spot next to him, and I sit down. Relaxed. For a moment I close my eyes, and sigh.

"Are you alright?" Remus asks airily.

"Maybe? I don't know?" I open one eye, and look at him.

He closes the book he was reading, and smiles, "want to talk about it?"

"Maybe?"

He laughs, "it's an open invitation, Robin. Who knows, maybe I can help you."

Yes, maybe. He is Sirius' best friend after all.

Well, "best friend" might cut it too lightly... Fact is, he knows him better than anyone else nearby.

"Do you think Sirius- can be in love, with someone?" I ask carefully.

"Well, he's only human. So I don't see why not. I just think he doesn't fall easy."

I grin slightly, "yeah, that sounds like him..."

"You have feelings for him," it's a conclusion. The right one at that. And I hate it.

With a thoughtful look in his eyes Remus looks at me, "there's nothing wrong with that you know," he smiles.

If only he has the slightest idea of what is really going on.

I sigh irritable, "I know. I can't explain why I don't like it. I just hope you can trust me on my words."

Now the man raises an eyebrow.

"Nevermind," I mumble under my breath.

"Oh no, don't get me wrong. He- might have feelings for you too, Robin," Remus answers, and he crosses his legs, "I've never really seen him- behave the way he does when you are around. The morning you came looking for Kreacher-" he rolls his eyes and snorts. "Well, let's just say I had to listen to him talking about you for the rest of the day."

I slump back in the cushions, "I- I can't- I mean, I have to be there for Harry. For the Order."

And with that the Wizarding World.

Remus slumps down next to me and I chuckle.

"Aren't you too strict on yourself there?" he asks, "don't you think love is beautiful in times like this?"

He's got a point I got to give it to him.

But I'm not sure if I could. Even if Sirius would feel the same, I'd probably feel weird about the whole thing.

On top of that, don't I only like him because he's my favourite character? What if I confuse those feelings with love?

I wrinkle my nose, and Remus laughs, "what are you thinking? Are you afraid he's a bad kisser?"

Now I chuckle.

"He isn't," Remus adds dryly and I burst out laughing.

"I'm not even surprised you'd know that!"

If Rowling only had the balls. I rise and stretch. Maybe I should keep away from Sirius.

I distract him from this man sitting on the couch.