hey,
Well it's october- we are getting into our favorite time of the year. In some ways it makes me happy, in others it makes me sad.
I hope you've been doing well and are still safe and healthy. I also hope that your classes have been going well and you've been cooking and staying active and hanging out with your friends. In general, I hope you're happy, I truly do.
I am writing this now for a lot of reasons. There are some things I want to share with you and some things I need to do for myself.
First of all, I just wanted to say happy ~early~ birthday! I hope you have an absolutely amazing day with both your friends and your family and that you celebrate entering your second set of double digits well. We are growing up moghadam, it's wack. I wish the best for you always and I hope that with this new step further into adulthood and age that you find love, happiness, joy, passion, and all good things- god knows that you deserve it. I debated for a long time sending you a card for your birthday but decided at the end of the day that a card from me would probably bring up more sad feelings than happy ones and I don't want you to feel sad feelings on your birthday. A reason why I am writing this out a few days before your birthday as well.
There are a few other things I wanted to tell you about. My aunt is officially pregnant, the IVF worked and we are all so happy. My mom texted me at midnight my time and I facetimed her immediately and then called my aunt and uncle right after to congratulate them- there were a lot of happy tears. My mom and I were talking about it and neither us have been able to sleep out of pure excitement and we already have so many plans for the baby and how we are going to spoil him or her. They are going to be truly amazing parents and we all could not be more happy. she miscarried
Classes for me have been going well- We recently got the project we are going to be working on for the rest of the quarter and it is this 5,500 square foot multi use non profit for homeless teenagers in San Luis Obispo located downtown. I am very excited, this will be my first official building that I will be designing in the architecture world and with it has come feelings that are both overwhelming and intimidating but also exhilarating and inspiring. I have been lacking motivation if i'm being honest the past few weeks, it's been hard to stay involved and engaged in classes the second time around virtually than the first time and who knows why. I think I have to blame it on staring at a screen for a majority of my day but I try to go out and on walks in between classes just to get some air and have a break. It's hard because everything from sara and I's workouts in the morning to class to homework to me wanting to chill watching netflix involves a screen and I miss the aspect of life where I would have to journey from one location to the next. I'm not complaining though, I'm happy in SLO and I am so glad I am here and my motivation is coming back now that we know what our steps for architecture are moving forward.
My roommates and I are all healthy and well. We are probably going to go to this place called field of lights for my birthday in paso robles and I am looking forward to it. Our dynamic is nice and apartment life is good- I honestly don't miss home yet but I also blame that on the fact that I was trapped in my home for six months. Sara, Indigo, and Lexi will all be going home ranging from monday to wednesday before thanksgiving, but I will be staying in SLO and finishing out finals here before I come home for the winter. It will be my first time completely on my own but I honestly don't mind it. I feel like with the pandemic and all I haven't really had time to myself by myself and it will just be for a few days as finals are immediately after thanksgiving.
I also wanted to tell you about someone that I am currently talking to. I'm not sure what the relationship aspect of your life looks like and I hope that in saying this I am not crushing you or making you feel the way I felt when you had told me about bailey, but I have been talking to someone for a few weeks now and it has gotten pretty serious pretty fast. He is a good guy with good interests and we share a lot of morals and life goals and I honestly haven't felt or thought I would feel a connection with someone like this other than with you. I wasn't sure what the best way of handling this was in terms of me telling you or not, and have had many debates with myself. However, at the end of the day, I am happy and decided I wanted to tell you this not to hurt you or rub it in your face or make you feel bad or anything, but because I would rather you hear it from me now rather than find out about it from mutual friends or social media down the road. We don't have any labels yet, but we had a long conversation a few nights ago about where we want this to go and we're on the same wavelength but still want to wait a little longer before making it official. Another reason why I wanted to write this update.
Overall, I just hope that you are safe and happy Malec. It is all I ever wanted for you and all I will ever want for you. This will probably be my last update for the foreseeable future so I wish you and your family all well. I hope that moving forward you find yourself in an everlasting state of true happiness. Once again, you deserve it.
Good luck, best wishes, and again- happy birthday.
I can't wait to see where you end up in life and truly hope that one day our paths will intertwine as friends.
C'est la vie, Moghadam.
Go kill em, I will always be rooting for you.
